What's Wrong With You?

-11-

"Roman, it's not what you think!" Seth managed to speak out. "I really did think that the pain was temporary and was nothing much to create a scene about."

"Oh, I get it now," Roman rolled his eyes. "To you sharing stuff with people means creating fuss about things."

"No, I don't think that way, Roman," said Seth and then lowered his eyes, thinking what he must say. He was astonished at the fact that Roman actually wanted his attention. He took a deep breath and then looked up at Roman with a confident gaze in his eyes. "It's true that I don't really like to speak up things but you mean a lot to me. And about me sharing stuff with Dean but not with you... that's not true at all. The whole thing is that I'm not good with words which is why I can't really express how much I love you," said Seth and stopped speaking at once when he realised that he had just blurted out the words 'I love you' in front of Roman. He soon got his eyes off Roman while his cheeks went red from blushing.

"Just do what you're comfortable with. But I didn't like the way you lied to me so as to cover up the thing that I could already see." continued Roman. "You say you love us," added Roman after a pause.

His last sentence hurt Seth the most. His eyes started watering up as he had gathered up all his courage to tell Roman what he felt about him but Roman's reaction to it made him feel shattered. Does Roman hate him now? He probably did. The more Seth tried to think about it, the heavier he felt on his throat. He looked up at Roman with his watery eyes and swallowed hard. "Roman, why don't you believe me?" his voice cracked while he mumbled.

The look on Roman's eyes turned milder as soon as his eyes met with those of Seth. He was taken aback for a moment as he had not expected that Seth would start crying so easily. The feeling of guilt started to build up within himself as he thought he had hurt Seth for no reason. He held Seth by his shirt, pulled him close and ended up hugging him warmly when he saw Seth standing awkwardly, not even being able to cry. Seth stood still with forehead resting against Roman's shoulder as he cried silently. Roman was all the more surprised while Seth cried more and more, as he had no idea that his words would hurt him that very much.

But that was not the reason why he was crying. He had just confessed Roman his love for him in words which was why he lost control over his emotions and burst into tears. Seth had never actually thought that he would dare blurting out before Roman that he loved him. Now that he was in Roman's arms, he felt like he would just cry more and more.

As soon as Roman felt Seth's warm tears wet his shirt, he placed his hand at the back of Seth's head and swayed him gently in his arms in order to comfort him. Seth dug his face deep into Roman's neck, weeping uncontrollably but he decided to keep his arms free as he feared that if his arms touched Roman, they would finally end up either creeping underneath Roman's shirt or running down his butt and sqeezing it hard. He could never trust his own patience. Roman clasping his body in his arms tighter and tighter made him feel more and more desperate. He then slowly pressed his mouth against Roman's shoulder as he continued to weep. He closed his eyes and placed a soft kiss over Roman's shoulder in such a manner that Roman couldn't even notice it. "What the heck am I doing?" Seth spoke to himself inside his head.

Roman patted Seth's back several times before he separated him from his own body. He then stared into Seth's face holding it between his palms.

"I'll forgive you as I'm in a good mood," said Roman staring at Seth's face that was flushed from crying.

"You still don't believe me," breathed Seth, as his big weepy eyes stared back at Roman. Roman pout his lips childishly as he watched Seth who couldn't stop sniffing at that moment. "Oh Seth," pouted Roman, wiping the tears off Seth's face with the back of his hand. Seth closed his eyes while he sensed Roman moving his hand all over his face. He soon opened his eyes getting shocked as Roman moved his fingers down his face and even wiped his runny nose. Roman then, held the back of Seth's head with his free hand and leaned his own forehead against Seth's.