I Found a Place In My Dreams (Charlie Jones/Over Atlantic)

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I spent the next couple of days at my house, just spending time with my mum and brother. My mum looked better than ever.

I was currently on FaceTime to Trevor as I sat at my mirror and did my makeup.

"So you want us to be in the music video?" he asked, confused.

"Yes and no, I want the music video to be for you guys..." I said as hope filled my voice.

He gave me a look of extreme confusion.

"I want to film a music video for one of your songs!" I said.

"Really? Cool! I'm so up for that! I'll speak to the boys"

"What about us?" I heard a familiar voice in the background as someone walked into Trevor's bedroom where he was currently sat.

"Taya wants to film a music video for us for her media project" Trevor explained, looking at the person who had entered his room, though I couldn't quite see who it was as they weren't in line with the camera.

As my name was mentioned who I now realised was Charlie, poked his head into shot and gave me a cheesy smile. "Hello!" he said as he waved.

I returned the gesture quickly but was surprised when I felt butterflies erupt in my stomach. Wow, he is so cute. Wait...why did I say that?

Charlie soon left the room and Trevor then spoke up.

"You adore him" he said bluntly, though I couldn't help but notice a look of hurt cover his face.

"I do not" I retaliated.

"You clearly do. Just please don't get hurt.." He trailed off.

"What do you mean?" I replied, confusedly.

"Nothing in particular, I just don't want you to get hurt because I hate that. I can't stand to see you hurt, and if one of my best friends caused you to hurt I don't know what I'd do"

I felt so bad for Trevor. I always felt that when I told him about my problems, it was just more for him to worry about. He has bigger things to worry about, I'm just so selfish.

"Trev, I'm going to go..."

"Tay, are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. I just need to think about some things, that's all..."

I soon hung up and was now left alone with my thoughts. Big mistake.

My mind kept switching back to Charlie. Just his smile, his laugh, his voice, how his eyes sparkled whenever he was happy. I loved that about him so much.

I decided to give up on my makeup and instead just wipe it all off before making my way over to my double bed where I sat, staring into space.

I suddenly felt sadness wash over me as I continued to think about Charlie. I wish he was here. I wish I could hug him. He makes everything better.

I just want him to hug me so tight that all my broken pieces are fixed back together again.

I like him so much.

Wow... I like Charlie.

My eyes widened at the thought as I began to worry. I can't like him. He's my best friends bandmate and he'd never like me back anyway. I'm just setting myself up for disappointment.

I couldn't believe what was going through my mind. I need to take my mind off of him.

Shopping! That will work...

I didn't even care that I wasn't wearing makeup, I had bigger things to worry about now.

I was already wearing a band tee and leggings so decided to throw on my All Time Low jumper and my low black converse. I then threw my long hair into a messy bun and grabbed my backpack before making my way out of the house.

I thought that Bluewater would be my best option since there were so many shops there, and so I hopped on the train and began my journey.

When I arrived, I made my way to Urban Outfitters where I bought a few things before heading to Topshop and doing the same. This was great. I was taking my mind off of Charlie and I felt a massive weight lift off of my shoulders.

My next destination was going to be HMV where I was planning on buying a film or two maybe. As I made my way into the shop, I immediately made eye-contact with a very familiar set of eyes.

"Taya!" Liam announced as he walked over to hug me.

The rest of the boys all looked up as excitement filled their eyes and they made their way over to me to hug me as well.

I hugged them all in return though only counted a total of four hugs. I looked up slowly, only to realise that Charlie wasn't there.

I was about to ask where he was when I noticed Trevor giving me a look of sympathy.

"Where's Charlie?" I asked slwoly as my eyebrows furrowed.

"Out with his 'friend'" Sean replied emthasising the word 'friend' as they all erupted in laughter, though Trevor stayed quiet.

"Who?" I asked, confused at what was so funny.

"His 'friend', Danielle" Liam said as they continued laughing.

All of a sudden, I felt my heart break. Who is Danielle?

Why did this hurt me so much? I only just realised today that I liked him, so why am I feeling this way?

Trevor noticed the look on my face as I looked down to the ground. Within an instant, everyone stopped laughing and stared aimlessly at me, most probably realising why I was so quiet all of a sudden.

"Sorry Tay, we didn't realis-" Sean began.

"What do you mean? I'm fine. I'm not bothered. Why would I be bothered?" I said, not realising how fast I was speaking.

There was silence again and everyone looked around hoping that someone would speak up.
I felt a panic attack emerge. My vision went blurry and my hearing began to sound like I was underwater.

I felt my palms begin to get quite clammy and my heart was beating out of my chest. Tears began to brim at my eyes as thoughts of Charlie rushed through my head.

All of a sudden I felt myself being pulled out of the shop and into a hug who I recognised as Trevor's. Tears began to fall faster as Trevor spoke soothing words into my ear. Usually this stops my panic attacks but for some reason it wasn't working, causing me to panic even more.

I felt broken.

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