I Found a Place In My Dreams (Charlie Jones/Over Atlantic)

1.4

I spent some time upstairs thinking to myself about Charlie. I had so many doubts and regrets flowing through my head that I began to feel slightly light headed. I knew exactly what was happening.

I felt a stray tear roll down my cheek as my breathing began to gradually become more difficult to control. It slowly became out of rhythm and I found myself getting even more light headed.

I was having another panic attack.

I gripped the duvet which was beneath me making sure I was still aware of my surroundings. I just needed a hug right now, but no one was here.

My crying became uncontrollable as my breathing became even more difficult to control. I didn't know what to do.

My face slowly heated up as I felt tears fall into my hands which were in my lap. I quickly wiped my eyes and began to focus on my breathing, trying to get a steady pace.

After a short time my breathing was near enough back to normal through using a couple of techniques I had picked up over time.

What is happening to me? I thought to myself. I have now had two panic attacks, both because of Charlie. Trevor was right. He told me I would get hurt, and look at me now. I'm a mess.

I made my way over to the mirror so I could fix my makeup and make it look like I hadn't been crying so the guys didn't ask questions and especially so Charlie didn't see.

As I made my way to the stairs, I noticed Trevor walking up them with a worried look on his face as I heard people talking downstairs, including a girls voice.

My eyes widened as I realised the possibility of whom it could be.

"Taya, she's downstairs..." Trevor said quietly so the others didn't hear.

I heavily sighed and rolled my eyes at the thought.

"You don't have to go down if you don't want...I'll sit up here with you if you want!" He suggested, trying to make me feel a little better.

"Trev, it's okay. I kind of want to meet her anyway. See who this girl is..." I replied, laughing slightly.

Trevor gave me a reassuring look in which I returned before we both made our way downstairs.
We slowly walked into the front room where they were now all sat as the whole room went quiet.
Not taking any notice of the situation, I planted myself on the sofa, i between Sean and Liam as I smiled at them both.

I glanced across to Charlie and Danielle as I gave her a sweet smile before saying "Oh hi, I'm Taya, nice to meet you" acting like I didn't already know she was there.

"Hiya, my name's Danielle" she returned as I smiled.

As the conversation began to pick up again, I looked back across at Danielle. She had long brown curly hair, nothing like my blonde hair.
She looked quite short, even though she was sat so I'm not quite sure, but yet again not like me since I'm Sean and Gabe's height...

She was very pretty. Her makeup looked natural and she didn't look caked in it.

I turned back to Liam as he said something which made everyone erupt with laughter. When I turned back, I noticed Charlie already looking at me. I connected my eyes to his and was surprised when he didn't break the stare.

We made no facial expressions whatsoever and instead just sat and stared at one another until Sean tapped my arm to speak to me.