Don't wanna be torn

Chapter 3

I barely got any rest last night. I've mainly been up just thinking about the past few days. Basically my first day was horrible. I have been contemplating on how or what Rebeca meant when she said, "you will regret this". Maybe she wasn't so serious. Maybe she was just saying that to scare me.

I have been seeing Lucas around school. I don't see why so many girl are just so crazy about him. I'm not falling for it. Yeah, he is good looking but with the title he has and his attitude is not something I think I could just throw myself at like the other girls. Especially Rebeca, I think she has a thing for him or something. Every time he's around she is laughing at everything he says. She is always flipping her long brown hair and trying way too hard to stand out. It's ridiculous.

The bell rings for lunch. Which isn't my favorite place or time of the day but, it does mean it's closer to the day ending and me going home.

As soon as I walk through the door I head straight to an empty table. I'm not hungry so I just decide to read one of my favorite novels, The Hunger Games. The room all of a sudden gets a little bit quiet. I look up and everyone is staring at Rebeca and her clique walk in. A lot of people start to whisper, maybe remembering what happened Monday when her whole outfit was ruined Because of me.

Shortly after Lucas walks in but this time he is walking with someone else. He is with a tall guy, with short dirty blonde hair that is a little curly at the top. Most of the females have wide smiles across their face and are giggling and twirling the ends of their hair like they are in a trance. Meanwhile, I role my eyes at how weird they can be over two guys that don't even really care about them.

I then spot Hillary, standing leaning on the brick wall on her phone. I would go and say something but I don't know what to say, what to do or talk about. After all I am new so there isn't much I can say. Before I can even finish gathering my thoughts, it seems like she has spotted me already. She comes walking over so I put on a small smile on my face, fold the page of book so I won't lose where I was at and close it.

She pulls a chair out and has a bright smile. A pretty smile at that.

" why are you sitting here all by yourself?" She says while running her fingers through her curly hair.

" I don't know I kinda don't know any one so..." Hillary quickly cuts me off.

"Do you want to get to know people?"

" yeah, sure..I guess." I say uneasy,not really sure on how I would get to know people. I'm not really bold and out going. I'm not usually the first person to go up to people. I don't want to embarrass myself, I already do that enough.

" well I could probably help you with that. I could help you open up. Don't be so shy."

" first off, if you don't mind me asking. So uhmm, who is that? You know the one that was walking with Lucas. The tall guy, I haven't seen him before."

She then rolls her eyes like she is annoyed with him or something before finally speaking. " oh him , that's Daniel. He is just like Lucas. Good looking, gets all the girls. You can't tell?And they have pretty much been buddies for as long as I can remember. The inseparable duo." She finishes with a sigh before looking away.

" wow, this is some school here." I say sarcastically.

"Hey! There is a party tomorrow. You should come! " she says with a jolt of glee.

"Uhmm, I don't know I kinda don't do parties. Im not a party person."

" have u ever been to one?"

" Is it someone's Birthday? " I say with confusion.

"No.."

" then no I have never been to one." I continue without letting her finish, feeling a little embarrassed.

" OMG!! What! Girl then u have to come. I can pick you up tomorrow before the party starts. You want to get to know new people and fit in. Then you need to open up. Trust me I got you, just stick with me and we will be solid." She concluded with a big smile and with an expression of hope that I will agree.

" FINE!! I'll go.." before I know it I was actually kind of excited about it. I felt a small smile begin to appear on my face.

" yayy!! I'm so happy for you. " Hillary yells before giving me a huge unexpected hug.

*****

On my way walking home from the bus stop. Before I know it, the clouds begin to get dark and I hear thunder. All of a sudden rain start pouring down really hard. GREAT! Can my week get any worse. I throw on my coat over me and start to walk. Then my whole shoe ends up in a thick, dark mud puddle.
" are you kidding me?"
Wait, who am I talking too. I think to myself before shaking my foot and sprinting home.

I finally arrive home. I unlock and open the front door to see my mother in the kitchen about to prepare dinner.

"Woah! I assume you just got rained on." My mom says, while stirring the Alfredo sauce in the pot.

"Yeah, I did ."

" so how was school?" She comments back with a smile on her face seeming interested for what I have to say.

" it was, okay. Better than the last."

"Anything, you know...new? Friends, gossip, clubs?"

"Well.. i met this new girl Hillary this week and we are kind of cool. She invited me to a party tomorrow." She then stops what she is doing to come over to me with wide arms and a huge smile.

" awww, that's great hun. I'm so happy your getting out of that little shell of yours. Ever since that incident back in Florida happened, I haven't seen you happy."

I then look at her disappointed that she would even bring it up. I don't like to talk about what happened back home. I just try to ignore it. Even though it's brought a huge impact in my life. Even it changed me and who I am.

"Sorry for even bringing that up." My mother ends up saying when she sees the expression on my face change. " you know what, you can just go off to your room now. I still have to finish getting dinner ready. I'll talk to you later, or whenever you feel like talking."

" it's fine, it's okay mom. I'll just be in my room." I grab all of my wet things before walking away.

I am beyond exhausted. I throw all my things in the middle of my floor before finding my PJs to put on. I go in the bathroom to then take a extremely hot shower really quick. When I get back to my room I get in my bed without even eating dinner yet and I'm fast asleep.