Don't wanna be torn

Chapter 25

    Im scrolling through my phone trying to decide on what to make for dinner tonight when Lucas come over to finally meet my mother. I honestly think this may go well.

    I kind of have a feeling that she is going to be too over protective and bombard him with questions. Since the last time I was in a relationship it didn't have a good ending.

  As long as she doesn't mention anything about my past I'm fine. I hope.

In the middle of looking at different dishes I hear my door bell ring. I wasn't expecting any guests right now and honestly don't feel like being bothered. I'm already feeling a lot of anxiety about later on.

    I just want this to be perfect. I like Lucas a lot and this means everything to me and if this night goes well this is just another step towards our relationship not ending anytime soon.

When I reach my door I peek through the sheer curtains to see who it is , then eventually opening it.

"Hey!" Hillary says with glee.

     "Wassup." I add as I gesture to her that she is welcomed in.

"So I was thinking tonight you and I should hang out since we barely do anymore. I rented a comedy and I brought popcorn with movie theatre butter." She says with a smile, holding up the popcorn and movie.
 
   "Hillary I would love to but-"

Her smile starts to fade and disappointment starts to appear across her face. I really hate to cancel on her but we have hung out plenty of times. I have to get ready for tonight, I can't mess this up.

       "It's Lucas isn't it?" She says cutting me off and rolling her eyes.

   "I'm sorry.." I plead.

    "No, it's fine have fun with your boyfriend since that's all you care about now." She says, then begins to walk towards the door.

"No..wait..stop, don't be like that." I go after her.

     "I'm not being like anything. You're the one that can't take too seconds without being with Lucas to actually spend time with your actual friend!" She says. My face softens because I'm hurt by her words.

"Excuse me..I do hang out with you."

     "Yeah, then bail on me because you would rather hang out with someone else." She says angrily.

"If it wasn't for me actually feeling bad for you the day you and Rebecca collided in the cafeteria you wouldn't even have any friends. You should thank me." She continues.

     "What a bitchy thing to say from someone who wants to hang out with me so much! And you want me to call you a friend?" I reply. "What about you,huh? Where are your other 'friends'? How about you go hang out with them. Oh wait you probably don't have any."

" I actually do! But you know what?  I put you first because I actually pity you sometimes. I just don't want you to be alone." She snaps.

     "You know what Hillary..Fuck You!!" I yell.

I can't believe she would say that. I really did think she was my friend but now that the truth is out I know otherwise.

   I can feel the lump in my throats and the pain arising in my chest. I try my best to hold my warm tears from streaming down my face. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I should've have tried to put her first sometimes after all I did meet her first. As for everyone else, they just wanted to stare and gossip.

   I can't believe I lost the person who let me out of my comfort zone, was there with me from the start and made me feel like I actually belonged somewhere besides by myself with a novel.