Don't wanna be torn

Chapter 19

    All night  I just kept thinking about Lucas and I. Despite all the negativity Rebeca brings, I think she actually brings me and Lucas closer. I don't think there is another person I would rather be with.

   The only thing I am worried about is school. When people find out about us. I don't even know when we are going to even define the relationship. Yeah, we did go on a date and share a few romantic moments but that doesn't mean we are actually together, I think.

    He hasn't said anything about us being together and I haven't either but I guess whatever happens, happens. I know Lucas is different than what people say he is and we all know he has been with a lot of girls but I still get suspicious and assume things a little.

     Like what if he has taken other girls to that same restaurant or flirts with other girls when I'm not around. I mean there are a lot of things that could happen. I just don't want to look stupid or even feel stupid setting myself up for a trap.

   I may think one thing now but as soon as I get around him all my assumptions and "what if's" go away.

  The bell rings snapping me out of my trance. I turn around to close my locker then turn back around to see Lucas coming my way. I quickly straighten my posture and smile widely.

He comes up to me with a smile then pulls me aside under an empty staircase.

    "What are you doing?" I ask him confused.

"I just wanted to talk to you. I missed you." He says with a smile and brushing his thumb along my cheek.

      "Oh..uhh what is this?"

"You ask a lot of questions." He replies.

        "Are you going to answer though?"

"What did you mean by "what is this" ?" He says furrowing his eyebrows.

     "Like what is this..us.. what are we?" I ask.

"We are whatever you want us to be." He says, reaching for my hands and intertwining our fingers.

       What do I want us to be, is the big question. I want to be happy. I am happy with him. I want a relationship with him. I want there to be an us, Lucas and NaSia. I need to think about myself for once and not what everyone else would think. That's my main problem which is not for me.

"Honestly I don't want to put any pressure on you. We can take things slow. I just want you to know, I really like you. I've felt this way ever since I saw you at that party "drunk". You are so beautiful and I wouldn't want to see you with anyone else." He says.

     I'm trying to hold back blushing but I can't help it and a huge smile spreads across my face.

    "Let's be together then." I blurt after coming to my senses.

"Really?!?!" He says excited but confused at my boldness.

         "Yeah...I don't want to wait any longer." I say.

       The last bell rings indicating that we need to get to our classes. Lucas grabs my hands as he walks me to my class. We both have smiles across our faces both happy. Everyone is staring and whispering. Some girls are even glaring at me mad a little for walking with him.

     I know girls are probably thinking it's the end of their chance with Lucas.

            This is the beginning of a new relationship for me.

    Sorry this is really short but I'm going to try and post ch.20 as soon as possible. I'm almost done writing it. Plz comment, vote & share with friends!!❤