Don't wanna be torn

chapter 8

           Mondays are not my favorite days. I don't think it's really any ones. I am not looking forward to how the rest of today will go. I haven't heard from Hillary or talked to her since the party Friday. I'm still kind of embarrassed anyway from what happened. who wouldn't be? I hope everything died down by now. Then to even think that Lucas actually took me home is crazy. I can't believe he actually tried to kiss me too. No surprise, he has probably done that with a lot of girls, probably even more. I think knowing he has been with a lot of girls is really making me uninterested. Plus, I'm not ready for a relationship. Just because of an incident with my last relationship, I don't know if I want to be in another one.

    I feel bad for not at least texting Hillary to giving her an explanation to why I just ran off the way I did without telling her where I was going. I hope she wasn't too worried about me. I know she will forgive and understand once I tell her the rest of the details of what happened on my way home.

 I'm just about done getting my books and notes from my locker. I'm scanning the hallways to see if I could spot her through the crowd. I finally see her and she sees me at the same time.

      "Oh my gosh, I'm so happy you're here today!" she says relieved while running up to me. "Where were you? Where did you run off to? How did you even get home?" she stammers trying to catch her breathe.

"It's okay...and I'm fine. I left the party, started to walk home but then Lucas found me and offered me a ride. "

   "WHAT!?!?...Lucas gave you a ride home and you didn't even tell me?" she says, with wide eyes and in shock.

       " I know. A lot was going on that night and I just didn't feel like talking to anyone really." 

"Well, what happened? What did ya'll talk about?" she says, anxiously to find out.

        "Nothing really. He asked where I was from..I told him. He complimented me a few times, tried to kiss me..but I wouldn't let him and I just went in my house. That's it." Hillary's jaw is dropped to the floor by now and blinking a few times.

 "That is crazy!! Any girl right now would consider you so lucky. It's good you didn't kiss him, that means you have good standards then. Usually girls would be all over him and he would just pick one but it's unusual for him to just come up and pick you out of no where. You should still be careful though I don't want you getting hurt. Guys can be a little cruel and heartless." she concludes.

      " I don't think if would be into him any time soon. I have been in a relationship before not a healthy one but I am fully aware of the be careful and don't get your feelings hurt type thing." I say rolling my eyes playfully a little.

       " On the bright side, guess who talked to me.." she says cheerfully and raising an eyebrow waiting for me to guess.

 " I don't know, who?" 

"Daniel! He asked me out, on a date!!..I know, I know your probably wondering that he may be just like Lucas but I'm willing to give it a try. You never know he might actually change."

            "Well good luck to that." I say with a smile as we begin to walk.

"Oh.. and what did you mean when you said you've been in a unhealthy relationship before? I'm surprised you even dated anyone." she says looking straight at me.

     " I meant it just like I said it. It's nothing to worry about now, I am miles away from that person now." I say, trying not to make eye contact.

Lucas P.O.V.

 " Really, so you mean to tell me you actually tried to kiss her?" Daniel says trying to hold in his laugh. "Man.. real smooth" he says sarcastically while leaning up against my locker.

        " I don't know. There is just something about her man. I feel so stupid for making that move." I say, closing my eyes and slamming my locker.

  "Well, while you were doing that I asked Hillary out. Maybe it's time fore me to be loyal to one chick."

       " That's good. I don't really like this rep we are now starting to kind of get. Just because girls throw themselves at us and we hang around them for a little bit then drop them doesn't make us players." I say throwing my hands in the air.

         "Well, when you put it like that, it actually does. That shit must suck for those girls, I tell you that." Daniel says, while looking straight at me.

   " You know I kind of actually want to be in a real relationship for once. To give it a try at least. If I see that it's not for me then I guess I'll have to just drop her and go on with my life."  I say with a meaningful tone.

     "Fine...and I am so with that." he agrees.

"Plus, I think I might just really be into her but it's not going to come easy. She is most certainly a challenge."

                     

NaSia P.OV.

  I can barely stay awake in class but i'm happy that the lunch bell rings. Everyone rushes to the door at once leaving me to be the last one to get out the class. My math teacher stops me at the door causing me to turn around.  I just really want to leave and I don't have time to sit here and get any lecture for whatever she has to say about me in her class. I really just want to go to lunch I know Hillary is waiting for me.

     "Ms. NaSia , hold it right there. Can I talk to you for a minute?"

"Yes, Sure." I say turning around making my way to her desk.

    " I am concerned about your grade in my class, looks like you're slipping up."She says as she is taking her glasses off her nose and putting them on her head.

       " I know..it's just that I don't understand anything in here and I can barely stay awake."

"well I advise you to get your rest at home and study more as well, maybe even come to tutoring on Wednesdays." 

       " I will certainly do that." I say with an uneasy smile. I walk off really fast trying to make it in time to the cafeteria. I'm already about five minutes late. I see Hillary standing waiting on me impatiently.

       "Well it took you long enough." she says, as we start to walk to stand in line. 

I then glance around the cafeteria to see Lucas and Daniel walk in side by side. They are walking in looking around and smiling at whatever they are talking about that is so interesting. I can faintly hear Hillary's voice talking about something beside me but i'm not paying attention. It's like I can't snap out of staring at him, he is just so good looking. I see him look at me as he keeps walking and smiles with a head nod. I can't help but to smile back uncontrollably. Oh gosh no,  I hope I am not falling for him.

        " HELLO, EARTH TO NASIA ARE YOU LISTENING!!...why are you being weird?" She asks.

                    "Huh?..Oh uhh.. nothing I was listening. Go ahead and continue." I lie.