Don't wanna be torn

Chapter 13

I wake up because of the sunlight shining through the thin space of the blinds. I look over onto the floor to look for my cell phone to see the time...10:50am. I then roll over to see Hillary staring at me, causing me to fall off the bed.

      "Good morning sunshine!" Hillary says, running her eyes and smiling.

"Damn it Hillary! You scared the crap out of me. You have to stop being a creep sometimes." I state, while pulling the now tangled covers from around me so I can stand up.

     "Well my bad! Did u know you have a light snore? I could barely sleep." She exclaims.

"Aww, I'm sorry I slept good." I say sarcastically, followed with a light laugh.

     "So..school is tomorrow. You going to talk to Lucas?" She asks, while pulling the sheets up her bed.

   " uhh, I don't know? It's kind of awkward. I'm already going to have to deal with Rebeca's shit  because of what happened. I may not even talk to him."

     "Who cares what Rebeca has to say!" She yells with an attitude.

"I care because I'm the one who has to put up with her crap."

     "You don't have to put up with it."

" well I don't know what else to do."

      "Do you like him?"

"Yea..no..maybe..uhh i don't know?" I stutter really confused on my feelings for him.

    "You need to make up your mind real quick because we have school tomorrow and you can't dodge him forever."

"You don't know that." I say raising an eyebrow.

     "NaSia trust me, I know." She says assuringly.

I don't say anything. I just stand there watching her make up her bed and begin to clean her room. I sigh then eventually start to help her in silence.
 
     I don't know what to feel about Lucas. Everything is just happening so fast. Not to mention I haven't even forgotten about his reputation at school. He can have any girl at school. Why would he want me? I mean honestly Im probably nothing like the girls in his past relationships.

     I don't even know if I'm even ready to open up to be willing to share in feelings with him. That is a big risk. If he is even serious? What should I even do? I don't want to end up being the next victim to one of his player ways.

      I have to make up my mind like Hillary said. Eventually he along with other people will want gossip, details and drama about what the most popular boy in school next move will be. Which I don't see why that's so big of a deal. Don't people have lives, instead of worrying about someone else's.

   When Hillary and I finish cleaning her room up some we head down stairs for something to eat. I decide on just eating a bowl of my favorite Honey Bunches Of Oats cereal.

       That's when something finally hits me. I totally forgot about my math test tomorrow. I really need to study. It's already my least favorite subject. This test is major and I do not need to fail.

      "Hillary. I need you to take me home." I say while moving with urgency.

"Why what's up?" She asks concerned.
      
     "I forgot all about my math test tomorrow and I really need to go home and study." I comment back while gathering all my things together quickly.

"Alright. You know you can always go to tutoring every week after school or at least find someone to tutor you." Hillary suggests.

        "Yea I know about the whole after school tutoring thing but I don't know if I will have time." I say while exhaling loudly when I reach the front door.