A long way home {a Shawn Mendes fanfiction}

F I V E

I'm home. I'm shaking. He tried to kiss me... but... does he really have a girlfriend? I don't know. I look in the mirror and see a tall girl. Beautiful brown hair. It's me. But I just don't recognize myself. I never wear dresses. I look back at the mirror, the black dress suits me, like no other dress ever did. I grew up in less than 3 months. First I was a little girl. Now I'm a girl that goes to parties in dresses. Jesus. I grew up.

The next months pass and I keep going to parties. But Jersey ignores me. I tried to talk to him but I gave up now. This boy doesn't deserve me. It's december and Christmas is coming. I'm so excited!
It's saturday morning and I am at my mom's house. I go downstairs.
"Hey mom, goodmorning!"
"How was the party yesterday? Any boys?"
"Not for me... I gave up mom. But Olivia kissed this boy called Noah. He is cute, he has green eyes and dark blond hair. He is super tall. But Olivia likes him so I have no chance." I laugh "it's okay I'll get a boy one day"
My mom laughs and then her phone rings.

Hello, it's Brianna Parkson can I help you?
Yes?
Oh okay
But what about my children?
Yes it is!
Please give me one more chance
Okay bye
My mom smashes her phone on the table. "FUCK!"
I'm surprised "mom who was that and what happened?"
My mom sighs "I don't have enough money to care for you. You and your brother will go live with your dad..."
"Why? I don't want that!"
"you have no choice"
I look to the ground disappointed.
"When?"
"Next week"
I sigh
My mom sighs
"I'm going to miss you mom"
"I'm going to miss you so bad, you and your brother were the best things that happened in my life. I'm losing everything. I promise I'll try to find work so I can care for you you again"
I nod "I love you mom"
We have breakfast and my mom calls my dad to tell about it.
"He is okay with it. Fortunately, because if he wasn't, you would be going to an orphanage."
"Fortunately"
"Yes..."
Te week passes and the day that I'm going to live at my dad's and Amanda's home has come.
I put all my baggage in my room and sit down on the bed. It's saturday and I don't know what to do. So I watch some youtube videos and see a video with a "shawn mendes interview" I'm curious cause some weeks ago I heard some songs of that Shawn Mendes on spotify but I don't know him. So I watch the video. He's super cute but the video is annoying so I watch something other. A few horrible weeks pass. School goes worse and worse and worse. At home my dad is always mad at me and Amanda tries to make the situation better all the time. Her children are super annoying and my brother is always with friends. My life is one big mess.

It's christmas. We've got some presents and we're going to have dinner now. Amanda cooked and it's really yummy. Then my dad says he need to tell something. He stands up and smiles.
"I found a new job!"
I smile sarcastic "super cool"
"But we have to move"
I look up "what? Where to?"
He takes a deep breath "we're going to move to Canada!" He smiles
I spit out my food and drop my cutlery. "What?!"
My dad smiles "yes! We're going to begin again. All our lives are big messes. We're going to leave those messes behind and start a new life in Canada. It's going to be amazing!"
I push my chair away from the table, stand up, and run to my room and start crying.