A long way home {a Shawn Mendes fanfiction}

S E V E N T E E N

~Shawn's POV~
It's 9.20 PM and I cried all night long. I miss Ashley so bad. What even is my life without her? I really need her back in my life, but how can I get her back. I messed things up so bad. But she didn't really break up with me. Maybe she will come back? I cry for another 10 minutes when the doorbell rings. I slowly walk downstairs in my sweatpants and sweatshirt and open the door. "YOU'RE NOT READY SHAWN!" I jump as I hear Camila yell "no I'm not, I told you, I'm not coming" Camila looks confused "you just cancelled our date?" Now I look even more confused "date? Why would I go on a date with you, if I have a... Uh... Girlfriend" she gives me a don't-lie-I-know-everything look "you're single" "I'm not" I say doubting. "Fine. Once we will be together Shawn! We're meant to be. Mark my words" she says as she walks away. I go back inside and decide that I'm the one who sould make the first step to contact Ashley. But how? I go upstairs and lay in bed. I cry myself asleep without having dinner.

Next morning I go to school. Shoot. First class is with Ashley. Not going to survive this. I arrive in school just in time. And I head to my class, where all the other students are already in their seats. I sit down next to Ashley - I have no choice - and she immediately looks away. I decide to just ignore her and try to work on my math exercises. But I catch her staring at me several times and the hole in my heart becomes bigger an bigger. How much I need her is not describable. I simply can't live without her in my life. I should talk to her. But not now. The rest of the days I haven't got any classes with Ashley anymore, so I just walk from class to class like a zombie, my friends don't even notice me being mentally absent at lunch. They just talk to each other and I just sit. Staring at my lunch. Camila keeps on coming closer to me and touching me and I just want to et rid of her. I need to get Ashley back. She is my girl and I want her. I will fight for her. She is totally worth it.

~Ashley's POV~
At lunch I sit all alone in the corner of the lunchroom. I see Camila almost sitting on Shawn's lap, but Shawn just staring at his food. He isn't paying attention to Camila. What even is he trying? He is not even trying to get me back, but then he doesn't even accept Camila to be his girlfriend. Did I break up for nothing? Because I only broke up because of Camila. And I know that. I need to stop lying to myself. I'm not even mad at him. I totally understand him. But I needed a reason to break up otherwise Camila would kill me.

The bell rings and everyone stands up. Including me. I put my empty lunchbox back in my heavy backpack and swing it over my shoulder. I quickly take a look at Shawn's squad's table and see Shawn doesn't move. He just sits there at the table. Staring at his lunch. All his friends leave him. I start walking slowly and hope he won't notice me walk by his table. He doesn't so I quickly walk by. I didn't notice Cameron rushing into me and next thing I know I face the hard, cold floor. I wince in pain and close my eyes. "Oh my god Ashley I'm so sorry!" I hear a male voice far away. I don't see anything but instead of seeing blurry things it's like I hear blurry voices, they are so far away. I hear another male voice "are you okay?" I slowly open my eyes to remember that I'm in the lunchroom and I need to get up as soon as possible because I will get a bad reputation (a/n IM SORRY I HAD TO) I already have ø friends and if I'm 'the one who fell down and didn't get up' I won't ever have friends. I place my hands under my body and push myself up really quick. "I..I'm fine... uhm... i..it's okay" I stumble. Feeling really really dizzy. I feel a strong hand grabbing my bicep before I totally lose my mind.

I slowly open my eyes. As soon as the sun shines in my eyes I turn my back towards the sun and close my eyes again. Where am I? I open my eyes and see I'm home. It's 5.38 PM, I conclude as I open my eyes to look at the clock that hangs above my bed. My bed. Oh I'm at my dad's home. But why? Well I don't know. Doesn't matter. I hear footsteps on the stairs and my dad comes in. When he sees I'm awake he walks up to me and kisses my forehead "hi princess, how fo you feel?" He questions. I think about the question. How do I feel? Uhm my head hurts and my back, ouch my back. When I think about it I notice how bad my body hurts. What happened to me? "Everything hurts. And my head. It hurts really bad, what happened?"
My dad smiles "you fainted in school. After someone rushed into you. You got up too fast and fainted"
Oh great. Goodbye reputation that I didn't have.
"Great" I mumble
"But I hope you feel better soon!"
I nod. Thanks for your attention. I think before I fall asleep again.

Next morning at 9.20 AM my dad comes in and brings me breakfast. Including 2 muffins and an egg with bacon. I eat everything and drink 3 full glasses of water. Since when did I have no food? I don't know. When I finish breakfast my dad lays his hand on my shoulder "there is someone for you"
I furrow my eyebrows. "Who" I ask curious.
"Can I let him in?" He asks me
"Whatever"
My dad nods like it was a yes and 2 minutes later Cameron walks in.

Followed by Shawn...