A long way home {a Shawn Mendes fanfiction}

T W E N T Y - O N E

{Ashley's POV}
It's saturday morning, 2 pm and I miss Shawn. Yes we are together, but really, I don't really feel like we are. We don't talk a lot and he's leaving in one month and a half. Why would we be together? I grab my phone and text him.

Ash - hi Shawn, will u come over? Yo girl is bored 😆

Shawn - omw, can't let my girl be bored 😛

Ash - clean ur mind

Shawn - that wasn't supposed to sound dirty minded?

Ash - but the emoji

Shawn - open the doorrrr

Ash - omw 😂

I open the door to reveal a smiling Shawn, we really needed to talk. He got inside and closed the door. He put his arm around my shoulders and planted a kiss on my cheek. "I missed you". I turned to face him and told him "I miss you too, Shawn". We went upstairs and sat down on my bed. "We should talk". Shawn looked shocked by what I had just said. His eyes widened and he looked at me, tears forming in his eyes. "What's wrong? I'm not breaking up with you!"

I stood up, so did he, and pulled him into a tight hug, closing my eyes and muffling my face into his neck.

"I was so scared you'd give up on us" Shawn's voice was shaky and sounded scared and sad at the same moment. "No I won't, Shawn." I reassured him, pulling him into another hug.

"What'd you want to talk about?" He asked me, once he had calmed down. I took his hands in mine and looked him in the eyes. "Shawn, I have the idea that we're not really together, you know. We never do the things that girlfriends and boyfriends always do. Like going on dates and seeing each other a lot. We live next to each other but we rarely hang out!"

Shawn nodded in agreement "you're right, but I was scared that you wouldn't want to go out together, because of Camila. You know?"

He was looking me dead in the eyes right now, which scared me a bit. "It's not your fault Shawn, really. But I decided to stop caring about Camila" Shawn's eyes lit up. "Really?" A smile formed on his precious lips.

He was still looking me in the eyes, with anybody else I would've felt awkward by now, but with Shawn, I loved it. I stared back at his beautiful hazel brown eyes as he cupped my cheeks in his hands and came closer. Still looking me in the eyes until he was so close that he'd only need my move to kiss me, he closed his eyes and waited patiently for me to kiss him. I closed my eyes as well and placed my lips on his soft, pink ones. I wrapped my arms around his neck as his arms found their way around my waist. We kept kissing until we were out of breath and opened his eyes again. "Ashley" he whispered, still out of breath "yea?"

"I love you"

"I love you, too"

I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT JUST HAPPENED.

I smiled and he pecked my lips. "I really do, Ashley. I'm madly in love with you."

"Shawn, so am I, I want to spend the rest of my life with you"

He pulled me into a hug and kissed my forehead. "There's something else you wanted to talk about, eh?"

"How'd you know?"

"I feel it, you're nervous"

"Right, it's just, what I said you know. I wanted to make sure we were a couple, since you're leaving in less than two months... and, and I don't even know for how long you'll be leaving!"

I close my eyes in pain, thinking about how long Shawn could be gone for his tour, with Austin Mahone. And how long it'd take him to bring out his first album and get a tour for that.

Mental pain

"I'll be gone for 3 months, and then I'll be back. There's nothing to worry about!"

I open my eyes again. Nothing to worry about. I do trust him right?

"Ash..."

I look up at him and he looks me in the eyes, smiling "you do trust me, do you?"

"I do, really"

"It'll be only 3 months, one of them will be in Toronto so I will be making sure that we see each other then" he gave me a little smile saying that he actually was really excited but he wouldn't show it because I was there and he should be sad because of me.

"So, aren't you excited!" I said, my voice cheering him up, standing up.

He stood up as well, "Hell yeah!" He finally found back his beautiful smile with his perfect white straight teeth. "I've heard that some people will be there only for you, not even for Austin! They love you Shawn!" I said excited

"So you're not mad?"

"Mad..?" I looked at him confused before jumping in his arms and nestling my face in his neck, smelling his unique scent. I would miss this so much. "I could never be mad at you for chasing your dreams! I'm so happy for you!" I spoke truthfully. "I'm so proud" I said while I lifted up my head and placed my forehead on top of his forehead and looked me in eyes. "Shawn, I love you, so much" I said, before pecking his lips. "Ashley, I love you, so much more" He whispered, his breath hitting the skin of my face.

He put me down carefully and wrapped his arm around me. "We'll be fine, it's only 3 months and the show in Toronto will be somewhere in the second month, do you want me to get you tickets?"

"I would love to see your show! Can you get me tickets?"

"Yeah, I mean, I could try!" He smiled widely.

"Thank you" I sent him a smile as well

"Oh, Ash"

"What?"

"We're going on a date tomorrow"

"Bossy" I chuckled, so did he. "But that's okay"

"I'll pick you up at 6"

"Alrighty"

"See you tomorrow" he planted a kiss on my lips and grabbed my hand, made his way downstairs and opened the front door.

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HEY GUYS OKAY SO

I've just read chapter one. Of this book. And oh my goodness I HADNT REALIZED THAT IT WAS SO CRINGY OMG. Okay so I'm going to edit all the chapters. So the next update (chapter 22) will be AFTER I've edited all the chapters. :)))))

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