Shivers * WWE Fanfic

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My head is pounding harshly when my eyes open. Everything hurts and not mention I stink really bad.

When I turn my head I see Dean laying beside me. My heart speeds up and I hear it in my ears.

Because I want to worship your naked body.

I look at myself and see that my dress is lying on the floor. My ears are ringing and I'm panicking. I grab one of the blankets and wrap it around my body.

I want to make love to your mind.

I rush to the bathroom and lock it. When I look at myself in the mirror I drop the blanket on the floor. I'm still wearing my bra and underwear.

I want to learn all of your darkest secrets.

It makes me feel relieved that I'm still wearing undergarments. It doesn't change what happened last night though. I brush my teeth and wash my face. My hair looks rough and dirty.

I want to so, so, bad.

I sit on the shut toilet and grab my pounding head. Deans words keep coming up to my mind. Everything that happened last night is clear as water in my mind even though I was drunk.

"Do it." I say. Dean looks in my eyes and shakes his head. "I can't." He whispers softly. "Yes you can."

He looks down at his lap and I'm so wasted. My head is still spinning. I feel like throwing up. My head is starting to feel weird but I feel it.

I know he feels it too. I might be drunk but I know my feelings. I start taking off my dress but he stops me. "Stop."

"What is it Dean?" I start to get a knot in my throat. "Is it that you are so into Sasha that you can't even look at me naked? I mean you look at other girls all the time. Why am I the exception?"

By now there's tears streaming down my face. "Because- because you do it all the time. You've done it over and over and why stop with me?"

I take off my dress and Dean looks at me. He scans my body but then looks away. "Aj. Please just don't okay? I told you I don't want to hurt you."

He wipes my tears and kisses my forehead. "I care about you. A lot. I don't want to just have sex with you. You're like my best friend. My other half. I've learned to love you and I can't hurt you."

He softly kisses my cheek and then travels down my neck. His kiss sends shivers down my spine.

There's still tears streaming down my face and I'm not sure why. My heart hurts and everything hurts.

He pulls me in for a hug and I lay my head against his bare chest. He rubs my head and lays his against mine.

"Pookie?" I look up scared and notice he's knocking on the door. "Are you there?" He asks. I bite my lip nervously as I try not to make noise.

What is my plan exactly? To ignore him forever? I doubt I can accomplish that taking in consideration that we're fake dating.

I wish I could forget everything that happened last night. For some reason everything is stuck to my mind. Everything. I thought after drinking I wasn't suppose to remember in the morning.

"Come on open up." I get up and quietly pick up the blanket from the floor. Before I open it I wrap it around me.

"Hey." He quietly says. "Hi." I reply shyly. He looks at me and then at the floor. "Sorry about last night." I blurt out.

"It's okay. Umm, we were drunk." He says. "But I know you remember it. I made a fool of myself." I whisper.

"It's fine. Just forget it." He says. I nod my head and walk by him. He stands by the bathroom door as I sit on the edge of the bed.

I hear the sink water on and after a few minutes he walks out. "I don't want things to be weird between us now."

He sits beside me and I look at him. "It all my fault. I shouldn't have said all of that. It was all of the alcohol in my system."

"I just want you to know I-" I cut him off before he says anything. "I know." We stay silent for a few seconds.

I stare at the ocean view as the sun goes higher in the sky. "I really meant what I said." Dean says quietly.

"What exactly?" My eyes are still fixed outside the window. "I care about you and I didn't want to hurt you."

I turn to face him. "And that's why you couldn't do it? I still don't understand why. You care about Sasha don't you? Then why did you have one nightstands with her? Why were you friends and benefits with her? Don't you care about her?"

"It's complicated. When I met Sasha that's how it started. We only looked for each other for sex. When I met you I didn't talk to you for sex. I didn't look for you to have sex. And I don't want you just for sex. You're my best friend."

He hugs me and I hug him back. "So you won't ever look at me different?" I whisper. "What? What do you mean?"

"Never mind." I say quickly. I pull away and get up before he sees my face. "Uhh... well I'm going to get the car while you shower."

He puts on a shirt while I walk to the bathroom. "Okay." He glances at me quickly and walks out of the room.

I walk to the bathroom and turn on the faucet. When I get in I turn on the cold water. It makes my body numb and my skin is filled with goosebumps.

"So you won't ever look at me different?"

"What? What do you mean?"

I close my eyes and try to let the water drown my thoughts. Sadly it doesn't work.