Shivers * WWE Fanfic

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There's another knock on the door this time louder. "Dean! Open up. It's me." Sasha screams.

My eyes widen as Dean walks to me. "Can you please hide in the closet?" He whispers. "But Dean I-"

"Please Aj." He whispers again. He looks so frightened and nervous. I nod my head and walk to his closet.

He opens the door and I step in. I hide behind his suitcase and blankets. "Thank you." He mumbles quietly.

Dean walks away and closes the door behind but the door doesn't shut completely. I reach to grab the doorknob and to close it but Dean opens his door.

Sasha walks in and I pull my hand back hiding behind his stuff. I still have a clear view of everything though.

"What took so long huh?" She asks looking around. "I was in the shower." He says messing with his hair.

"Why're you panting?" She asks crossing her arms across her chest. Dean takes a deep breath before he answers.

"I was in the shower and I heard you knock then I rushed to get it." She sits on his bed and doesn't look convinced.

"Come on babe. I'm not lying." He sits on the bed beside her and kisses her cheek. She smiles and looks at him. "Okay fine."

"So what brings you here? I was suppose to meet you at the lobby in thirty minutes." He says. "Yeah but I changed my mind. I don't want to go out anymore."

"What? Why? We were going to eat and then take a walk in the park." He sounds disappointed and I see it on his face.

"That's boring. I want to do something fun." She smirks running her fingers down his chest. "Why don't we go out? Like on an actual date? They're really fun and I get to show you off."

He smiles and she frowns. "Dean." She says rolling her eyes. "What's wrong with that?" He asks. "Nothing. I just want to have fun."

She leans in and kisses him. Not a peck but a full on hair gripping, body rubbing, tongue sticking kiss.

I want to look away but my eyes are glued to them. As I watch them kiss my heart sinks more and more.

Sasha takes off her shirt and Dean glances at the closet. I'm not sure if he can see me but I keep looking right at him.

I want him to say no. I don't want him to do it. Not in front of me anyways. She leans in to kiss him again and he stops her.

"Are you rejecting me?" She asks offended. "No. It's just that uh..." he runs his fingers through his hair nervously.

"Is it that you don't want me anymore?" She asks. Dean doesn't reply and keeps looking at her. A smirk creeps up her eyes and she reaches behind to unhook her bra.

This time when she leans in to kiss him he doesn't resist. He kisses her back. He kisses her with so much want - with so much desire - it makes my soul and every part of me ache.

I feel a knot form in the center of my throats making it hard for me to breathe right. I close my eyes as warm tears fall down my eyes.

This was my fault for coming. I shouldn't have never even knocked his door. This was my fault and I wish I could turn back time to not even show up.

I cover my ears and lean down to rest my head against my knees.

•••

"Pookie?" Dean whispers. I quickly get up and rush out of his closet. "Wait, hold on. Are you okay?"

I wipe the lipstick from my mouth and wipe my wet eyes. After that I take a deep breath and turn around smiling. "I'm fine. There was a lot of dust in your closet and it made my eyes itchy."

"Sorry about all that. It was-" before he finishes I speak up. "I know. I completely understand." He sighs and looks down at me. "Okay well what did you needed to talk to me about?"

"Nothing important. I really need to get to my room because I need to get some rest and I'm going out."

I'm not getting any rest and I'm not going out anywhere. I just said that to make it seem like I have stuff to do.

He gets in front of the door before I open it. "Come on. If you came all the way over here to talk to me it has to be important."

"It's not and you won't even care so why waste my breath?" He furrows his eyebrows together. "I care about you. I care what you have to say. Of course I care."

His words somewhat comfort me but that's not all I need to hear. "You sure don't act like it." He shakes his head, "Why do you say that? Come on talk to me."

"You need to say this or you'll regret it in the future."

"I like you." I whisper. "I like you too tinkerbell. That's no news." He says with a grin. I shake my head no, "No. I mean I like you."

His grin slowly disappears. "I like you. Not like a friend." I say hearing my heart in my ears. It's beating as fast as a rabbits heart. 

"Aj..." he says quietly. "I know it wasn't part of the plan. I know I screwed it up by falling for you. I couldn't help myself Dean. How could I? How I could I help myself if you make me feel so alive? I started living when I met you. I want you in my life and I want you with me."

He doesn't say anything he's just looking at me. Like he's waiting for me to say just kidding. "Aj I- I... don't- I just..."

"I know you don't feel the same." I mumble. "I just don't want to lose you. You're like my sister."

"You won't ever look at me like a woman? Like a girlfriend?" He looks down at his feet and a pang of pain hits my chest.

I try to get by to get out but he steps in front of me. "Aj hold on." I stop and look at him. We stare at each other for a long time.

I'm waiting for him to say that he changed his mind. I'm waiting for him to say something... anything.

He just stays quiet and I finally break the eye contact. "Can you move so I can leave? Please." I slowly whisper.

He moves away from the door and I open it walking out. Once I'm out I have to take a few quick breaths.

There's a feeling in my chest that I can't describe. It makes me feel empty and cold. I just poured my whole heart to him.

All he could do was look at me.

It's sad that I'm not even worth an explanation.