Shivers * WWE Fanfic

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I wake up at 7:05 a.m to complete silence. Dean is basically my alarm clock because he always wakes me up early with his obnoxious knocking.

This morning he doesn't.

I sit up and stare at the white wall in front of me. My eyes feel really heavy and my body feels tired.

All I want to do is sleep but I can't. Last night after Dean left I couldn't sleep. It's just hard to wrap my head around the idea of us not being together anymore.

Even if it was fake it still hurts. I'm still haunted by the thought of seeing Sasha with him. I can already imagine the wicked smile she's going to give me when she has Dean by his side.

It truly upsets me because she doesn't deserve him. She doesn't deserve his love or his attention.

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I stay on bed for the rest of the morning until it's time to leave. I've already packed everything.

As I'm heading downstairs I run into Sasha. Out of the ton of people here I run into her. "Good morning Aj."

Her voice makes me cringe. She looks so, so, happy it makes me nauseous. "Good morning Sasha."

"How're you doing?" She's got a huge grin on her face. I'm sure she wants me to say I'm on so much pain.

I'm not going to give the satisfaction of knowing I'm hurt. So I force a smile and try my best to sound happy.

"I'm great. How are you?" She seems a bit surprised by this. It's not what she expected me to say.

"Good too. Where's your boyfriend?" Of course she had to bring Dean up. I internally roll my eyes as I reply.

"Not here." She nods and keeps looking in my eyes. Like if she looked deep enough she will see the truth. She probably can, honestly. I'm just that translucent.

"Oh okay. Well it was nice talking to you. I'll see you around." She walks to the elevator first and doesn't even wait to see if I need to get in.

It's not like I wanted to go in the elevator with her. It would've been the worst minute of my life.

I decide to take the stairs because I'm dreading going downstairs. Seeing people right now makes me upset. They're probably going to ask about Dean and what am I going to say?

They're going to ask why we broke up, how, and when. I'm not ready to answer those questions. I'm not ready to get that kind of attention.

Once I get to the lobby I hurry outside. Since  Dean and I "broke" up I have to start riding the bus again. Or if I have to find a ride.

I'm too busy trying to rush to the bus that I bump into someone on the way out. I drop my suitcase and bend down to pick it up.

"Sorry." I say as I grab my suitcase a hand touches mine and I look up to see Dean. He smiles and picks up my suitcase.

"It's fine." It feels like I'm talking to him for the first time because I get really nervous. This reminds me that one time I bumped into him.

A few months ago I bumped into Dean. Kind of the same situation except things are so different now.

"Okay." I reply. Dean hands me my bag and when I take it our hands touch again. It makes me tingle inside.

"How'd you sleep?" He asks causally. It makes me feel good that he's talking to me like nothing happened. Maybe we don't have to stop talking after all.

"I had a rough night." The words slip out of my mouth before I have time to think about what I'm saying. Dean furrows his eyebrows together, "Why? What's wrong?"

That's the problem I don't know what's wrong. I'm severely upset and I'm craving to spend so much time with him. All of my emotions are mixed and I don't know what I'm even feeling.

"Nothing I just drunk too much caffeine before I went to bed. It kept me up most of the night." I wish it would've been caffeine the one keeping me up.

"Oh well I hope you learned your lesson bunny. Don't be drinking caffeine before you sleep." He grins. I immediately smile and feel happy right then and there.

This is all I needed to feel like myself again. "I did learn my lesson." He looks at his watch and then at me. "So do you want to ride..."

He stops talking and looks behind me. I'm too afraid to turn around but my curiosity makes me turn around.

When I turn my head around I see Sasha standing by Bayley's car. She's talking to Bayley but looking right at us.

She looks at Dean and I turn my head around. "Don't worry I'm riding with Paige." I say before Dean says something.

He finally stops looking at Sasha and looks at me. "No, no. I mean you can ride with me. I don't mind."

"But she does." I add. He presses his lips together and doesn't say something back because he knows it's true.

"Who are you riding with?" He asks. "Paige. I have already talked to her." Lie. Hopefully Paige will give me a ride otherwise I'm just going to look stupid.

I see a relieved expression on Deans face. This only feels like a heavy rock in my chest. I try to ignore the fact that my chest feels like it's being ripped apart.

"Thank you. I just don't want Sasha to think that you and I... you know." He whispers. I nod my head, "Yeah. You're right. It's not convenient to be seen with me."

"It's just that-" I cut him off before he says something else. I don't feel like getting my feelings hurt again.

"It's fine. Well I'll see you around." I turn around and start walking the opposite way. I don't even want to look at Sasha because I know she's grinning. I know she's happy about this. I know it.

Luckily Paige is just a few cars away. She's besides Sami's car of course. "Hey Paige." I say. She looks at me, "Oh hey Aj." She looks surprised to see me here.

"Can...can I have a ride?" I ask shyly. "Yeah sure. Does Dean need one too?" Here comes the Dean topic. "No. We- we broke up."

"Ohhh." She gives me a sad look but doesn't ask why. I'm glad she doesn't. Instead she hugs me tightly. It's just what I needed. "Yeah. Sure. Sami won't mind." She grabs my suitcase and sticks it in the back.

My eyes can't help but to glance at Sasha as I'm getting on the car. She's smiling happily at Dean. He smiles back and I turn back around.

Dean was the only color in my black and white world. Now it feels like I'm back to nothing but emptiness.