Shivers * WWE Fanfic

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"Someone didn't get enough sleep." Paige says as she walks in my room. "I was trying to sleep right now but-"

"But you'll have to do it later." She says with a grin. She jumps on my bed and looks at me with a smile. "What?"

"How did it go? You didn't even tell me. I know you probably didn't want to tell me in front of Sami because things got rated R."

"What're you talking about?" I sit beside her pretending to not know what she's talking about. "The date between Randy and you."

"It wasn't a date." I sigh remembering it all. I've been trying to avoid Randy since then. I'm glad I didn't have a match on Smackdown today so I won't see him.

"Whatever it was. How was it?" She seems pretty excited about it. "It was awful." Her grin slowly disappears. "What? Why?"

"Because it was just awful. He brought me Sasha's favorite flower, took me to eat where she likes it and wanted me to watch a movie she wanted to watch."

"Seriously? That does sound awful. What a douche." She replies rolling her eyes. "It wasn't what I expected."

"Well now we have even more reasons to go out." She says getting up. She starts digging through my suitcase pulling out clothes.

"Go out where? Have you seen the time?" I ask as she hands me jeans and a tank top. "Yeah I have and this is the ideal time to party. Sami and I are going out to a club. Come with us it'll help you forget what happened. At least for a few hours."

"I really don't want to be a third wheel." I mumble quietly. "You're not. Come on. I'm trying to be a good friend here."

"Okay. Okay." I get up and get dressed. After I grab a jacket we head downstairs where Sami is waiting for us.

I'm not so convinced about going out but Paige is right. She's just trying to be a good friend and I can't keep shutting her out. She's trying to make me feel better.

•••
The clubs loud music is already making my ears hurt and we haven't even been here long. I'm not used to it but Paige and Sami seem to be fine with it.

Sami hands me another drink and I take it. "Thanks." I reply. As soon as he turns around I put it down on the table.

I've drunk a few shots but instead of making me forget it's making me sick. "Come on let's dance Aj."

Paige grabs my hand and pulls me to the dance floor. "I really don't-" she pulls me anyways before I finish my sentence.

We start dancing and laughing at how stupid the dance moves are. Suddenly Paige stops laughing and that intrigues me. "I'm thirsty I'm going to get something to drink." I say in her ear.

"No, no, let's keep dancing." She says pulling me closer to her. "But I'm really thirsty and I want something to drink."

"No. Come on we will get something in a bit." She says quickly. "I really want something now." As soon as I turn around I regret turning around.

Now I know why Paige didn't want me to get something to drink because I'd see it. "Let's just go over here." Paige says grabbing my arm and pulling me behind. She calls Sami over who follows us behind.

I take a seat on a table and just stay quiet looking at the floor. "We could leave if you want." She says.

"No. I'm fine. Can I have another shot?" I ask Sami. He grins handing me one. I take it and wrap my warm sweaty hand around the cold cup.

"Ooh! I love this song. Let's dance." Sami grabs Paige and she pulls away. "No. I think we should leave."

"No. I'm fine. Go dance. I'll join in a few minutes." She doesn't look convinced so I smile at her. This seems to convince her a bit and she goes with Sami.

I stare across the club where Sasha and Dean are drinking something. Why do I bump to them everywhere?

It's like they're constantly torturing me on purpose. Everywhere I go I get reminded of everything when all I want to do is forget.

Sasha puts her cup down and grabs Deans cup. She puts it on the table as well and drags him to the dance floor.

I slowly bring the cup I'm holding to my lips. Sasha starts rubbing all over Deans body and he seems to enjoy it.

My blood starts to boil not just because I'm angry but because I feel jealous. I can't help getting jealous.

I don't want no one to have his attention but me.

Jealousy is one of the worst feelings in the world. It's so bitter it eats you up inside until it consumes every part of you.

Sasha puts her arms around his neck and kisses him. As I take a sip of the sour alcohol my eyes begin to sting.

It feels like they're on fire. I watch as they kiss passionately in front of everyone. No one else seems to notice but me.

I put the glass down and feel my cheeks wet. "Okay that's it. Let's go." Paige says grabbing me. "It's okay. I'm okay." I reply laughing.

As we exit the club the cold breeze dries up my tears. My cheek feels nasty and sticky. "I'm fine Paige." I'm still laughing because that's all I can do not to burst out in tears.

She stops walking in the middle of the parking lot to face me. "Aj." She says. "I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine." I keep repeating. Maybe if I repeat it over and over I'll believe it.

"I'm fine." My vision starts getting blurry and my voice cracks. "Oh Aj." She says quietly.

"I tried to Paige. I want to be fine but I'm not. I tried so hard but I just can't. I can't pretend it doesn't hurt because it does. I don't know what's wrong with me. I thought I'd be fine but I'm not. It hurts me so much that he doesn't talk to me anymore. I don't want to stop talking to him. I want him with me. I want him in my life. Nothing feels right without him, Paige. I feel like I'm dying because I'm watching him slowly forget about me."

I start sobbing loudly and she pulls me in for a hug. As I'm crying on her shoulder I see Sami a few feet away. He looks terrified and I'm so embarrassed.

I close my eyes feeling my headache get worse.