inseparable

.3.

°Phil's pov°
Class was over and Dan didn't even wait for me like usual.

He took off with that Sally girl. Leaving me behind. His little Philly.

I packed my things and saw Connor waiting for me, instead of Dan.

"Ready to go?" Connor asked me not noticing my mood swing I had just had.

"Yeah, I guess" I said sadly maybe he would notice

"Yayyy! Let's go" he said taking me by the hand

Or not.

We walked in silence. Each shop we passed took me back to the thought of Dan and all the memories we had walking down this street.

Connor seemed nervous, so I decided to ask him what was wrong although my mind didn't care, it only cared about Dan.

"What's wrong Connor?" I asked him stopping in my tracks looking at his expression.

"Its stupid, I'm just nervous cause I've never met such an amazing person. You're so perfect you know? Dan's lucky to have you" he said going to hold my hand.

"I-uhm-I I don't think this is right.. I don't like this" I said looking at him confused

"Look I'm sorry, but how about we talk about this in the café? Not here.. like like this." I said continuing to walk.

I didn't Like Connor like that.
Now it's all awkward.

Ugh.

We arrived at the café, and I saw Dan at a little table all the way in the back with Sally.

I began to make my way to a little table not so in the back just in case Dan thought I was following him.

"Here, take a seat" I pay down so Connor would take a seat.

"Hey may I take your orders?" A guy with brown curly hair that looked about 17 asked.

"I'm Troye by the way" he said gesturing to his name tag.

"Uhm yes, I'll have a caramel latte please. What about you Connor?" I asked

"Oh, I'll have the all black coffee" Connor said looking down at the menu thingy.

"Alright I'll be back with your orders." Troye said walking away with a smile.

"So uhm back to the conversation we were having outside" Connor sounded exasperated.

"I don't think we should continue that conversation, it's for the best. I'm sorry Conn I don't think we're meant for Each other." I said taking his hand.

He moved his away from mine. He looked me in the eyes with a pained look.

I was too busy looking over at Dan and Sally in the back laughing.

Connor turned around and stood up.

"Good luck with Dan, although it's a lost case. Looks like he's already forgotten and left you out in the cold." Connor said taking one last look and leaving.

I looked down knowing he was right.

I couldn't let Dan know this had just occurred.

I felt so humiliated that even other people could tell Dan and I were not talking like usual.

We were so happy last night. Now I feel stupid and in love.

I'm such a fool.

"Here are your orders" Troye said waiting for me to reply

I wiped my tears and replied

"Yeah yeah thanks"

He walked away hesitantly.

I didn't even bother looking at the food. I just wanted out.
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I arrived home. My body hurt and I was cold.

No one was home today.

I was alone.

Why am I alone ?

I can't be alone.

I can't.
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I woke up to me laying down on the bathroom. How did I get here ?

"PHIL!!!" I heard Dan yell from downstairs.

"I'm up here" I said standing up and walking out of the bathroom.

"What were you doing in the toilet?" He asked me coming my way.

"Oh, I was just washing my hands" I said looking down at my hands...

"Okay, well how was your day?" Dan asked turning around expecting me to follow, but I stood in the same spot.

He stopped speaking when he noticed I wasn't by his side listening.

"Phil? What's wr-" he didn't get to finish his sentence.

"Why Phil?" I asked not making sense.

"What are you on about?" Dan asked clueless

"Why Phil? Why are you calling me that? I thought I was philly to you.. your little Philly" I choked out.

"Phil you're over reacting. Are you serious right now?" He laughed

Why is he laughing.

"What do you mean? I'm serious" I said

"Youre so childish you know.. You're crying now over something so stupid"

"Yeah you're right this is stupid, I'm stupid, this friendship is stupid" I couldn't bare to look at him while saying that.

"I'm not in the mood Phil, I was having a good day, and you're just ruining it" Dan said shaking his head.

"Yeah having a good day ignoring me with that Sally chick" I was on the verge of breaking down.

"She's not a chick.. She's my girlfriend, and I was about to tell my best friend and I thought I would get a little pat or a hug in response, but no I'm getting my friends stupid sadness." Dan said, waiting for me to reply.

"Let your self out" I said in disbelief of the words coming from him.

I walked straight to my room passing by him roughly bumping into him.

I closed my bedroom door. And the next second I heard him shut the door downstairs.

I felt empty, alone, disappointed.

I felt the urge to do something. Something I shouldn't even be considering or thinking about.

At this moment that's the only way I would feel comforted. I can't believe I've stepped so low to even be walking to my bathroom at this moment.

I can't believe I'm closing the door to the bathroom.

I can't believe I'm opening my cabinet.

I can't believe I'm going through with this.
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I thought the last chapter was short. So here ya go!