inseparable

.8.

°Phil's pov°
I stood there In shock knowing that the Dan I had been talking to was my Dan.

We stared at eachother.

I probably looked flushed meaning my pale skin had begun to show off more due to the blood disappearing off my skin.

"Ph-Phil?" I heard Dan whisper.

It's been two unexplained years since I last saw Dan.

Dan looked mad and confused and happy yet sad. All the emotions showing on his face seconds apart.

"Why Phil? Why do I have to stumble across your account? Why do I have to find you again?" He asked irritated.

"You left me! You're so selfish" he spat blood rising to his face due to frustration.

"I had to leave Dan. I couldn't handle being there anymore, alone." I said looking down, feeling guilty of what I had done not even leaving a valid answer as to why I left.

"You're just as pathetic as you were before, why are you like this? You're so over dramatic. "Alone" wowowowow last time I checked your mum was there.. people have it worse Phil, sure I was your best friend, but seriously you left me heartbroken without any explanation, you didn't even say goodbye" He said getting teary eyes.

"I'm so sorry" I said my voice cracking with every word. Even my breathing had become uneven.

"I don't think you are Phil" he said

"D-dan but you d-dont even kn-know the whole s-s-story" my voice went from high to low not wanting to show how much I was breaking inside.

"I don't think I-I really need to know" he said looking at his hand avoiding my eyes.

I felt heartbroken, he didn't understand why I had left. Does he even understand how much I was experiencing back there, and I had to deal with it completely alone.

Dan was banging about how careless I was and how I only cared about myself and whatnot.

I couldn't take the humiliation he was cause me

I took a deep breath getting ready to probably look weak and cry.

I sighed, "You started dating Sally." I began

I had caught Dan's attention quickly. I felt as if I was back in my therapists room.

Just letting my feelings out letting any kind of emotion out roam freely out my mouth into my therapists ears.

"You had began to look more interested in Sally, and the thing was Dan. I had feelings for you. I don't know if what I felt was a crush or just brotherly love overloading.

All I know is that I was infatuated by the way you cared, and acted towards me. And you were my best friend so I just thought to myself that maybe just maybe I was confusing brotherly love with actual feelings." I said taking a shaky breath and continuing.

"We were inseparable as you might know but then Sally began to feed you with thoughts and so many negative thoughts, you started acted differently. You started off by calling me 'Phil' something you had never called me ever before, and it hurt even if it was a stupid nickname to you. After the fight we had I went to the bathroom to calm my cravings, I just felt so much heartache, and that's when it occurred"

Tears had begun to fall off my face on to the laptop screen.

"I had woken up, I was on the cold floor looking dead. I had gotten somewhat conscious of my surrounds.

When I saw that I had many missed calls I freaked out when I saw they were all from the hospital, and I had then realized my mum had never gotten home. I called back to find out she had been in a horrible car accident, and that she-she passed away" I said choking up tears falling everywhere.