Silence And Sound

Chapter 18.

Alex' POV:

Tuesday I was late for school. And when I entered the classroom it was empty. Where the hell were they? Normally Mr. Palvis would be standing at the whiteboard, talking about English verbs even though no one listened. I decided to just wait for them. I sat down at the table Niall normally sat at and looked at my phone. It was 8.32. I wondered where they could be, since Mr. Palvis never went outside the classroom with his students. Suddenly I heard someone cough, and I looked up. Damn that blonde hair was the last thing I wanted to see.

"Amanda, what are you doing here? Where's everybody?" I asked. 

"At the library I guess. I was at the dentist, so I just got here" she informed me. At the library, of course. 

"You're just late as usual I guess?" she scoffed. I ignored her question and got up to leave the room.

"So I hear you're dating that loser Niall?" she said just when I was walking out of the door. I stopped and turned around. 

"No. And he's not  a loser" I said, my voice stiff.

"If he sleeps with Debby he's kind of a loser" she laughed in a mocking way.

"He didn't"

"Oh I see. They lied to you and said they stopped? Well okay, they did. But not until I walked in there and caught them. He was all over her at that point" she said. My blood froze and I looked directly at Amanda. I didn't know if she was speaking the truth. She was such a bitch, so it was probably a lie. But on the other hand, they were all really drunk that night.

"Not that I care, but I thought Debby was your friend? A friend doesn't sleep with another friend's boyfriend, does she?" Amanda asked with an innocent voice. God I could just kick her damn ass and those shining grey eyes.

"They didn't do it. Niall stopped. Debby wouldn't lie to me" I said, trying to believe my own words.

"God you really believe everything people tell you, don't you? I have known Debby for five years. I know her! Of course she's lying to you. She has always lied to people to get what she wants. And I know this from experience Alex. She stole my boyfriend two years ago too. That slut seduced him. At my own party. In my own house!" 

"You're a bitch ass liar! Why should I believe you?! You talk shit about everyone! How about you shut up for a change, and start realizing not everyone falls for your shit!" I yelled. She just smiled at me. A fake smile, like I was a little kid.

"Alex, honey. How about you go back to being a lonely loser? No one likes you anyway, so stop trying. You're not cool. You're not pretty. You're not really good at anything. So just stop. Debby is only trying to get close to you so she can get to know Niall better. And Niall will give up on you as soon he realizes how fucked up you really are. Stop thinking that you have friends. You never had and you never will" she said with a sugar voice. I was speechless. I had no idea how to respond. Normally I would have some sort of evil come-back. But this was it. I had never heard anyone say this to me before. Not in this way. I looked down. Then I grabbed my bag and left the room. I was done. I was broken. Never before had I felt that humiliated and hurt. She was right. I would never get friends. Of course Debby was using me. She already told me that she liked Niall. And of course nothing had changed since then. Of course they had fucked at her party and of course Niall would never like me back. I was an idiot for keep trying. I was an idiot for trying to get his forgiveness. He didn't care about me, and my chance with him was already lost. I was such a fucked up person, and I had never realized it before now. My parents weren't the problem at home. I was. I'm the reason they are fighting all the time. I'm the reason they don't like me. Who the fuck would like a child like me? Niall was right. I'm nothing but trouble.