Silence And Sound

Chapter 15.

Niall's POV:

Saturday morning when I woke up I felt like something was different. I looked over to Alex' bedside and realized she wasn't there. I sat up and looked at the clock. It was only 8.30. Where was she? Suddenly I heard the toilet flush. Phew, of course she was just in there. But when the door to the bathroom opened and my dad came out, I got really disappointed. 

"Uhm dad? Have you seen Alex? Is she downstairs?" I asked. He shook his head.

"No haven't seen her. Did she leave without saying goodbye?" he asked with a frown. I nodded. Why had she left? And why this early? I put on some clothes and went downstairs to the kitchen. Maybe she had left a note somewhere. But after looking all over the kitchen and living room, I faced the truth. There was no note. And she had left me. And I had a feeling it wasn't just because she had important plans.

"Why don't you give her a call? There has to be a reason" my dad said from behind his newspaper.

"What happened?" my mom, who just got out of bed, asked.

"Alex is gone. She was there when I went to bed, and now she has left" I explained.

"Yeah she left about 2 hours ago. I was awake because I had to pee. And I saw her sneaking out. She just said she was sorry" my mom said confused. What? Why did she mean about being sorry? I suddenly felt like I had to throw up. Did that mean she was done with me? That none of what happened last night was real? That she wanted to end this? I had to call her. I grabbed my phone and went back to my room. Not even a voicemail or a text saying why she wasn't here. And when I called her she didn't pick up. I felt so stupid for even believing that she meant any of this. Of course it was just for fun. 

Alex' POV:

I was standing in the shower when he called again. It was the 4th time. Why couldn't he just leave me alone? I ignored the call and kept on scrubbing my body with soap. I needed to get the feeling of Niall's lips off me. It was so wrong. Why had I even kissed him? Why did I tell him that I had feelings for him? It was a mistake. A big mistake. Of course I didn't have a crush on him. I was the last person on earth to do do "crushes". I felt different about him now than when I first met him, yes. But that didn't mean I wanted to be a couple. Just the thought of being someone's girlfriend creeped me out. I got out of the shower and put on my bathrobe. I couldn't stop thinking about him. He was probably upset that I was gone. But it wasn't my problem. He didn't even like me like that. He only kissed me because he felt bad for me. I had expressed my feelings about him and all he did was questioning it. He didn't say anything about that he wanted it to be more or that he liked me. It was me who had kissed him. And when I woke up this morning I felt so embarassed. He probably thought I was some crazy girl in love. I had scared him. And that's why I don't tell people about my feelings. They get scared and then it's over. Suddenly they see me differently. In that moment I heard someone knocking on my door. If it was him I wouldn't know what to say. And when I opened the door my fear became real. Niall was standing outside with a disappointed look. 

"Why did you leave?" he asked before I could say anything.

"I don't know. Niall I'm not ready for all this. I don't know what happened yesterday. I don't know why I told you all that. It's not true. I don't want to be a couple and I have no idea why I kissed you. I'm sorry, but it wasn't me. You know I'm not the kind of girl to be in a relationship, so let's just end it here" I said. He was hurt. It was clear in his eyes.

"So you don't like me? At all?"

"No. You're so different from me. I don't want to be the person I am when I'm around you" I said. He looked down. I knew that I had to make him leave now. Otherwise I would probably start crying and tell him none of this was true. And there was only one way to make him leave. I had to lie and hurt him even more.

"Maybe I was right about you when I first met you. Maybe you are just an ugly loser" I said. He looked directly into my eyes. The pain in his eyes was almost too much for me. I really wanted to hug him and tell him I didn't mean this, but I had to make him leave before that happened.

"Fuck off Niall" I mumbled and closed the door. And then it happened. The tears started rolling down my face. Like I was a little baby. And it didn't stop this time.

(A/N: I'll update again later today, because I have to go to school now. Please vote and comment! I love you and tysm for 7k reads!)