What Is Love?

Chapter 38

Mika's POV

What a great great day!!! Nandito na kami sa aming dorm sweetie dorm. I'm now lying on my bed,actually, kay panda hehe she's so fluffy!! Si daks nasa banyo pa, nagpupunas. Ang tagal nga niya eh halos 30 minutes na siya dun eh punas lang naman. Simula nung umalis kami nung cafe shop na yun, napansin ko na yung pagiging tahimik ni daks. I know she's trying to be okay, kinakausap naman niya ako but I know her too well. I know whenever she's happy,scared or overthinking. When I turned my back, I saw panda, looking at me.

Mika: Panda, sa tingin mo, okay lang kaya si daks? Kanina pa kasi siya tulala eh

Biglang may narinig ako na lumabas ng banyo. Pagtingin ko, si daks, naka tulala. Hayy ano ba talaga nangyayari sa kanya?

Mika: Daks are you alright?

Ara: Huh?

Mika: I think you're not nga

Ara: What do you mean?

Mika: Kanina ka pa kasi absent-minded tapos pag kinakausap kita halatang pilit ka lang tumawa.

Ara: I'm okay antok lang siguro.

Mika: Hmm okay sabi mo

I'm don't believe her pero ayoko na pilitin. Nakita kong kinuha niya yung turtle stuffed toy niya mula sa bed niya at nilagay sa study table.

Mika: Bigay ni Thomas yan noh?

Ara: Hu-uhm-

Mika: Ano ka ba okay lang! Anong tawag mo sa kanya? Kay turtle.

Ara: Pong siguro.

Mika: Anong pwede itawag kay panda?

Ara: Ano ba gusto mo?

Mika: Maganda ba yung Kara?

Ara: Yep maganda naman.

Tignan niyo tahimik talaga siya. Konti lang yung reply niya. Biglang lumapit sakin si daks at hinug ako. Between our hug may binubulong siya sakin.

Ara: Thank you

Mika: Para san?

Ara: For being there for me.

Mika: Syempre best friend mo ako eh

Tinanggal niya na yung yakap niya sakin. She looked at me straight into my eyes. Parang nahuhulog ako sa mga tingin niya. I saw sincerity in her eyes.

Ara: Daks

Mika: Bakit?

Ara: Is it wrong if I fall in love with my best friend?

Mika: Huh?

Ara: I mean I have friend who fell in love with his best friend. He asked me the same question.

Mika: Hindi, it's not our choice to fall in love. Nangyayari na yun basta without us knowing when,why and how. It's a human instinct, Ara.

Ara: Do you think he should confess?

Mika: Depende pero kung best friend niya talaga yun, iintindihin siya. If his best friend likes him too then, it's good. If he really loves his best friend then he should not think negatively by saying 'pano kung di mag work out' or 'sayang friendship'. It's actually good that you know each other well before entering a relationship.

Ara: What if, she doesn't like him?

Mika: Like what I said, intindihin niya. Maybe may awkwardness later on. Pero if they really love each other as a best friend, especially the girl, he would go back to the guy. Because by the end of the day, friendship, is the only thing that matters the most.

Ara: What if..

Mika: What if?

Ara: Mangyari sayo yung nangyari sa friend ko?

Mika: Mahulog ako sa best friend ko?

Ara: *nodded*

Mika: Then, it's the biggest mistake of my life

Ara: Bakit?

Mika: Because I know how much important our friendship is and I'm scared to take risk. Kahit sabihin nating mahal ko siya. Knowing me? I'm selfish when it comes to love. I'd rather not to show my love instead of hurting that person.

Ara: Pano mo naman siya masasaktan?

Mika: Because love? It can hurt you billions of times but still make you believe that it's the greatest feeling of all times. Love can hurt you and I don't want to be the reason to make my best friend cry. Kung magiging kami? Masasaktan siya. Kung hindi? Iisipin niyang sinaktan niya ako. I don't want my best friend to feel guilty of what I feel.

Ara: Yun na nga yung mismong concept ng love. How can you feel the pain if you don't love him? Hindi ka masasaktan kung hindi mo mahal.

Mika: Kaya nga ayokong may magmahal sakin. Kasi ayokong may nakikitang nasasaktan dahil sakin. Ayokong may magmahal sakin ng ganun especially my best friend, because I hate the concept of love.

Ara: Is that really what you think about love?

Mika: Yes, siguro ganun na talaga ako. I will rather keep it to myself than being a burden to someone.

Ara: Okay thanks for your advice. Sige I'll go to sleep. Goodnight daks.

Ara kissed my forehead and decided to sleep already. I keep on thinking what she said awhile ago. Nagulat din ako sa sagot ko. I've never thought about it, just now.

Am I ready to risk for love? I think I can't lalo na kung best friend ko. Ewan ko ba bakit ganito ako mag-isip. Even in love I think practically and logically.

Sa nangyari sakin ngayon araw, natakot ako. Natakot ako kasi I felt unusual. Never ako naging ganito kasaya sa buong buhay ko. Pakiramdam ko I'm in fairytale. Like everything is okay and doing great. I feel like there are butterflies around me, birds singing as if welcoming a beautiful bride towards her handsome groom and I felt like only me and Ara, no one else, just us. Pero I know it's not the truth. In the real world there are guns and bombs, screams and wails and most importantly, there are a lot of people in this earth, that can destroy you anytime. That's what I felt awhile ago and realize just now. Kung ano man toh, I need to stop this, before it can destroy everything.

Ara's POV

Hindi pa ako nakakatulog simula kanina. I keep on thinking about Mika's answer. Parang inderectly niyang sinasabi na wag ko na ituloy tong nararamdaman ko. How can I stop myself in falling in love with a Mika Reyes? Lalo tuloy akong natakot na umamin sa kanya. I actually think na pwede na ako umamin dahil sa naging food trip namin kanina pero I guess I didn't change the fact, that Mika doesn't believe in love.

I know na hindi lang si Mika ang iniisip ko. The girl wearing a scarf, siya, alam kong kilala ko siya. I know that ring. I know it was personalized because I saw an initial of KG. I remember having that years ago. Pinagawa ko siya sa babaeng minahal ko. Hindi pwedeng may ka pareho yung binili ko dati because like what I said, it's personalized. I gave it to my first love in our first anniversary as a couple. KG stands for Ktin Galang. Corny, I know, but we all know that love can make you corny sometimes. Binigay ko yun sa kanya para malaman niya na pagtanda namin, pupunta kami sa US then, get married. But we all know that Ktin and I broke up. Kaya wala na rin yun. I should forget about it. Kinabahan lang ako, ibig sabihin ba nun nandun siya? Because  the only person who can have that is Ktin.

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(A/N: Yung itsura nung ring is katulad nung nasa media)

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