Beach Days [JaeSeong]

Chapter Thirty

~ time skip to Thursday ~

Jaeyoon has been feeling anxious and sad lately. For the past week he only spoke with Inseong when he called on Monday and when he texted him yesterday. He felt sad to be without him and anxious because what could happen tomorrow. He's very excited to see the other boy again because oh my, how he misses him. It physically hurts thinking about how much he misses the other. He knows that Inseong loves him and will be gentle if anything happens but he still feels nervous about it. It's weird knowing that he might lose his v card tomorrow. It's like they settled a day to do it. I mean, it's not like I have to do it. If I don't want to, I'm sure Inseong will understand. But I really want to.
Will it hurt?
Does it feel as good as everyone say?
How does Inseong looks like... There?
Jaeyoon blushes every time he thinks about it. And of course, his insecure negative self always have to think about all the bad things that could happen.
What if it hurts too much?
What if it doesn't feel good?
What if Inseong doesn't like it?
What if he thinks my body is ugly?
What if Inseong dumps me after doing it? Or doing me.
Jaeyoon likes to think about everything that could happen, but sometimes this isn't a very good thing. He's a very anxious person and there's nothing he can do about it. He makes sure his parents will leave at the correct time and everything is clean, where it was supposed to be. His mind travels around weird places for the entire day, not even a walk is able to clear his head. When he goes to bed he has issues with falling asleep due over thinking.

(A/n: Just you wait for the next chapter ;) happy new year btw. I hope 2017 will be nice to you. Stay positive. Be kind to yourself. Bye, loves ~ )