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Chapter Eleven

Adrianna's Pov
I gazed at my arms that were healing remembering three nights ago. I made the mistake of doing this to myself making J angry and upset but in the night of my tears.

I saw a new emotion go through J's eyes it wasn't insanity it wasn't mad. It was soft almost like love before I passed out the next day after that night I woke up in his room.

I was scared I was in trouble but then he gave me outfit calling out he was working and to do whatever.

I rested my fist on my forehead while thinking. I'm too broken for all these emotions ranking my tortured mind I then looked up.

I turned eighteenth today yes it's my birthday I don't even feel like I'm getting older but I am. "What did he mean I care." I exclaimed shakily while thinking and finally it hit me.

The reason I care so much about his judgment is I... I love him I thought while my eyes widen and I quickly hopped out the chair in the kitchen.

"I can't... be in love with J." I stammered out while looking down at the tile "it has to be why I try so hard and am sad I love him." there I said it again out loud.

"What!" a very loud shout screamed ringing through the kitchen while my body went cold it was Harley did she hear me talking to myself.

I turned around pulling my hair away when seeing her rage in her eyes.

"Harley you heard wrong." I told her while quickly inching backward gripping the counter.

"Oh really I heard you say you're in love with my puddin mine!" she shouted in rage I shook my head "I didn't." I stammered while moving away from the counter.

" He's mine I'm first his Harley queen you are nothing number two!" she yelled chucking a glass cup at the wall a tiny yelp left me and I ducked watching it shatter and fly everywhere.

"I should have killed you at first sight!" She screamed quickly I ran out trying not to be killed to unknown existence since her rage was like J.

"Harley please!" I yelled while running to the large living room hearing her follow she threw a vase aiming straight at me I'm surprised she didn't have a gun.

"Bitch!" She hollered the vase shattered and I yelped jumping in the couch it tipped over and I kept my balance a piece of glass landed on my cheek.

I was gonna run up the stairs until J did come running downstairs. I ran behind him grabbing his arm.

"J please I didn't do anything!" I yelled fearful when she finally was about to lung "Harley!" J yelled making me wince.

I clung to his arm slightly when Harley glared murderous. "Puddin do you really love her!" She yelled making me cringe hard when J looked genuinely confused.

"What the hell are you talking about causing a loud ass scene!" He hollered he looked at me slightly.

"Love the hell." He grumbled "Harley you're out of control I love that but love is something I don't feel," He grumbled my heart picked up speed but hurt.

"I'm gonna kill her." Harley snapped moving her beautiful hair "No you won't!" he shouted in rage.

"There's a reason I have her Harley I told you that on day one you hurt her." He growled out "it will be terrible," He warned her my heart was still aching at his words but I would expect that from the most insane person in Gotham.

I let J's arm go slowly when I shifted on my feet how can anyone feel love I thought swiftly turning on my heel I ran up the stairs.

"Adrianna!" J hollered but I was all the way up to the top down the hall I heard J rushing after me. I was quicker and then slammed my door shut locking it

I leaned on the door sliding down on it I covered my face I hate myself I'm slowly driving myself to be broken.

I screamed at the top of my lungs loudly there was loud bangs on my door and knocks but I stayed where I was "you better open this door!" He yelled.

I shook my head "go away J leave me alone I don't understand you!" I yelled I shook my head "I hate that." I whimpered.

"What don't you understand there's nothing to understand with me I'm crazy!" He yelled loudly continuing to hit the door "that's not what I think," I whispered quietly to myself while continuing to shake.

I screamed again loudly holding my chest while the pain in my heart grew I official am broken. I officially I've fallen for the Joker who can't feel love or love either the screams that came out they were broken you can hear it through I screamed out till my throat was raw and eyes hurting.