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Chapter Twenty

Adrianna's Pov
I walked around the office a little anxious and all a little side effect from the medication I always took. Sometimes I was a little tempted not to take them at all, but then I would recall the mental state of J and Harley and then would quickly rethink my decision.

It was a strange thought I was having and the thought never really occurred to me before. I mean I was still young but sometimes it was nice to think ahead in time.

I played with the sleeves of my hoodie before calling out "Babe?" I called out noticing he was dozing off his fist pressed into his cheek.

"Cupcake I am really really busy." He muttered fluttering open those blue eyes of his to focus on me for a minute. I felt my hands shaking and grumbled at the stupid side effects bouncing my hands off my thighs a bit still pacing around.

"Yes I can see that J but it's an important question, kinda." I looked around the office some more.

"What do you think about babies?" I questioned hearing a deep pause of silence in the room.

"Like children or babies? There's a difference there isn't there." I heard J laugh out for a minute to see him rubbing at his cheeks.

"I don't know really I guess they are annoying and all they do is eat and shit." I snorted out a quiet laugh. Okay he wasn't really wrong about that. Babies were a lot of work and stuff.

"Why are you pregnant!" He exclaimed fast. I then quickly snapped my eyes to him.

"J, I literally just had my period how could I be pregnant." I pointed out to him watching him grumble slowly slipping off his rings from his hands rubbing at his knuckles.

"You know just because you get a period doesn't mean you aren't pregnant women are so fucking strange with their bodies." He rolled his neck back popping out his shoulder and back a bit slowly unbuttoning his shirt.

"You do have a point but I don't think I'm pregnant don't worry I think if that was the case I would tell you right away." He grunted out again but then he looked up at me.

"Baby come sit in my lap I have a question for you." I sighed my hand still shaking but I walked around his desk when he scooted back before I carefully say down in his lap feeling him wrap both his hands and legs to support me.

"How is that you don't wear revealing clothes but you are still cute as hell, just wearing sweats and my hoodie and shirts." I cracked a shy smile and hid my face on his chest feeling his hands holding me closer hearing him humming a quiet tune.

"Here is my question for you, I asked Harley it the first time I met her and she answered with no hesitation but you are a little different so I know you'll take a few minutes to answer." I blinked my eyes a few times but decided to listen to this small question.I

"Would you live for me... Or would you die for me?" I was taken back and confused by this sudden question because it seemed like a trick question. I was already living for him just by being here, but at the same time wasn't I already dead? I mean I was basically dead when my sister sold me to him a year ago.

He tried his mind games on me. But I never killed for him, I never grew insane. And I did take my time to answer that.

"I am already doing those both." I spoke. J stopped his movements for a moment to gaze down at me deeply.

"Wanna explain?" I grabbed his hand to trace his knuckle tattoos slowly.

"I was already dead when my step sister sold me to you, she signed my fate right there, but I am already living for you by being with you." I slowly answered.

J genuinely looked intrigued by my answer and clicked his tongue. "That... Is an actual smart answer I don't even know how to answer it, I knew you weren't always stupid you are smart." He chuckled deeply. Leaning his head down he nuzzled the top of my hair that was now curly keeping me closer to him.

"My smart little cupcake who is all mine we will always be together forever and no one will take me from you, or take you away from me." I listened to his hums while he kept rocking me all in his lap.

I felt his hand then hold my own deeply tightly in his grip to stop my shakes and I took in his scent to ease my worries. And I stayed there relax.