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Chapter Thirteen

Adrianna's Pov
It's been months since the escape of running away from J. I never have been the same ever since then I'm always anxious. I burst into tears at random times I break down and always am on edge looking over my shoulder.

Falling in love for J has messed me up but I'm not crazy or insane I know I am not because I don't have thoughts of killing or have done anything to that extreme.

I was walking the streets it was midday in Gotham. I held my big jacket tight and kept looking over my shoulder when I felt gazes are.

I thought there was I looked down and squeezed my eyes when I walked into a shop full of people.

It was about time I needed new clothes this dress since the night I ran away has started to bug me. This shop seemed too much expensive which made me annoyed.

I need something anything but I don't wanna steal. I sucked in a breath and then I looked through clothes anyway I saw a group of people who were laughing and pointing at me.

I rolled my eyes and kept at what I was doing with my reflects I ducked when there was suddenly gunshots and a loud boom at the front.

I covered my ears shaking hearing the screams and hearing pained moans "well well what a pretty shop." I headed J's voice and that's when the whimpering and fear grew in me quickly.

I peeked over the rack with my ears covered seeing J in all white with Harley beside him goons everywhere.

"Oh god." I whimpered when Haley giggled holding her bat "You have something of mine here in the shop everyone says she has came in here today she's my kitten." He growled out and I whimpered rocking myself.

I can't go back if I do I'm gonna kill myself it's simple as that.

"We can really do this is easy, give me Adrianna or she can come out!" He yelled "or I'll just kill everyone in here what do you say kitten come back to daddy." He purred.

I was so selfish I can be selfish but I know I'm not selfish I care about other when's they do.

"1-2!" J shouted and quickly I got up "stop J." I stammered out when looking at him seeing him about to order the goons and Harley to attack.

He started smiling when he saw me "Kitten." He purred and I flicked my gaze down and back up.

"I'll go with you just don't hurt anyone else?" I asked him when he started laughing I walked to him and he grabbed my wrist "deal." He whispered.

He roughly grabbed me and yanked me out the shop. "Kitten you're in big trouble running away I've spent months looking for you." He snapped with Harley who came out giggling.

"Puddin." She giggled I blinked "let her come back, beat her till she's black and blue she'll be the same toy she'll be second!" Harley yelled and thats when something clicked into my sad little brain

My eyes went wide that's right I'm second and I'm not loved even though I loved J with all my little heart he didn't care.

Quickly when he was still dragging me I reached out and with hidden strength, I knocked a goon out quickly getting a hold of his gun and quickly face J and everyone.

"Woah now." J laughed out when the goons aimed their guns at me.

"Don't shoot!" He ordered to them I was trembling I was upset. "J I love you." I stammered out when he held his hands out looking at me with wide eyes.

"I've loved you since the beginning." I called still gripping the gun trembling "but even though I love you." I stammered out.

"I can't go back to you like this not broken in love just a toy to you, I need to fix myself." I stammered out when his eyes were still wide and stunned.

"I'm sorry J, I do love you and I hope you hear me I'm saying I love you but I'm not ready to go yet." I stammered out quickly with the gun I shot all the goons not enough to kill them but in their legs watching them shout and yell.

J watched and with trembling hands I dropped the gun to the sidewalk watching it clatter.

I looked into his blue eyes again that looked different and swiftly I turned around and ran again "Puddin!" Harley yelled.

"Don't!" J yelled "Adrianna!" he yelled and I shook my head running fast there was a task I wanted to do before I end it all and leave but I'm doubting if I should. I remember where me and Ari lived before everything happened.