Lost Dad: Dan Smith

Fourteen: Thinking

This is going to be a chapter of people kinda alone with their own thoughts. I think this song above is relevant because its about sexuality, which is mentioned in this chapter a lot. Its also one of my favorite songs, so enjoy! Edit: I could not load the song. (Every one of the POVs takes place at the same time, pretty much on top of each other)

Dan POV:

I secretly kinda hope Laura turns out gay. Then she won't be a teen mother like her own mum. I still wonder what she meant by "Sort of" about the twin thing, but I'll talk to her tonight in the hotel room. I'm mindlessly sound checking. I'm not the sort to get tired of touring, but I just don't feel like it tonight. I better enjoy it, because I won't be on an American stage for a while. I notice Laura sitting in the middle of the aisle cross-legged watching me. I subtly smile at her. I completely forget all together what I'm doing and stop everything for a half second. I remember I'm in the middle of playing Oblivion. I'm about to get to the high part, so I prepare myself by inflating my lungs. 

"You away sake it fuRTHER THan I... ever can." I sing. Playing the last few chords. When I finish, I hear a faint applause from where the audience of one is seated. Everyone else claps from near Woody's drums, which they all do even if I just walk up to the microphone to test it by talking. Laura puts her fingers in her mouth and whistles very loudly. I need her to teach me how to do that.

Kyle POV:

It feels weird to me, just watching Dan soundcheck. I do it all the time, and have noticed that Woody always watches me watch him. I think Dan's really good, and I don't think that makes me gay for him. I like a bunch of male artists, but I don't have crushes on them. Like, I can think a guy is attractive without being gay. I'm sure Woody would disagree, because he always taunts me with "Dyle." I guess it's better than it being "Kan". When Dan wraps up his soundcheck, I clap. It's become a joke that everybody claps when Dan finishes sound checking, even if he just tests a microphone by saying "buttermilk pancakes" or "smuh huh da la la." or something random.

Will POV:

I don't know why that kid irritates me. I'm not worried she'll steal Dan away from us, because nothing is more important to him than Bastille. It's what he's worked all his life for. He worked about fifteen minutes in uni for her with Ashley. I wonder if she even has any talent. I think Dan mentioned her playing guitar, but I looked out a window in the building into the rental car and didn't see one. I know it's none of my business, but I think he's wasting his time. Don't get me wrong, I think it's great he's taking her in, but I just think she'll be the reason he'll hold back on things that he used to been eager to do. Heck, if he comes home drunk, she probably won't mind considering her mother being a prostitute or whatever. However, she's no doubt his daughter. The child's eyes are bluer than the jeans she's wearing. Her hair matches her black high tops, which are obviously brand new. Crap. I think she noticed me looking at her. Pretend to be looking at the venue, William... Disaster avoided. Dan finishes, so I clap. I don't know why we all do, but we only do it for Dan and it really annoys him.

Woody POV:

I decide to write a stupid poem about Kyle when Dan sings Oblivion and he watches Dan, all heart eyed from afar.

Two best friends always being shipped by fans,

I wonder if marriage is secretly in their plans.

Dan and Kyle, too close of friends,

Maybe my weird mind needs a good cleanse.

Their gay display has lasted days,

I think it's more than just a phase.

I become satisfied with the poem and wish I could write it down. I've seen bits of Laura's left arm, which is covered in faded writing. It's not normal reminders, or anything that makes sense. like, the one I could read said "S 1 x 3 x x 5 x 7 x" I don't want to know what that means. I notice that Dan has wrapped up his run through of Oblivion and I clap, even though he messed up about 10 times.

Laura POV:

Its fair for me to say that I'm so overwhelmed at this point. I don't know what Dan's thinking about the whole twin thing. It's not as big of a deal as he thinks. Heck, he's not even really alive, or ever was. I bet his name would've been Palmer. I'm watching Dan soundcheck. He's playing Oblivion. I can tell he's deep in thought, because he messes up frequently. His eyes are locked on a stool near Kyle's keys setup. I notice he glances at me, so I smile, making him smile so we're caught in a smiling back and forth, like when you hold a mirror up the a mirror. I notice that when he sings high notes he stands on his toes, and when he goes lower, he dips his head slightly. I decide I'll write that down later. The way people do certain things really interests me. I notice that when Dan finishes a song on piano he stands still for a few seconds. I decide to clap, being the weirdo I am. Everyone else stops what they're doing and claps too, making me feel more confident. I whistle loudly, realizing everybody has stopped. I notice people have only clapped for Dan. Weird.

Ashley POV:

I can still remember his breathing on by neck that night last October. My last night with Laura. I was drunk when I had left so I didn't think anything of it, but now, that I've been over two months without drugs or alcohol, I've realized what a terrible mother I've been. I wonder where she is right now, and if she's met Dan. I've been told that if I don't suffice as a mother, he would take her in. Keys jangle, unlocking the door to the cold basement I'm kept in. The cold concrete beneath my body gives me extreme discomfort. I've been traded at least three times this month. I hear two girls next to me whispering in Portuguese. I wish they would tell me what they're saying, because I've heard them speak in English too. I wonder If they've established an escape plan. All I want is to go back and apologize.

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Sorry I'm making Will a bit of a dick towards Laura, but it'll be important later, I promise!