secret love || s.m

5. hospital

"i wish that it could be like that, why
cant we be like that cus im yours"

(PLAY THE SONG THATS ABOVE OR ON THE SIDE WHILST READING THIS CHAPTER. preferrably using earphones)

maya.

I woke up to hear my phone buzzing on my bed side table.

"Hello?" I asked with my morning voice. "Hes what?" "Omg Im on my way!!" I said on the verge of tears.

I threw on some sweats and headed straight into my car and off to the hospital.

Shawn had got into a car crash and has been badly injured, the hospital called me because i was the last person Shawn spoke to.

I really hope he is ok, I cant bare to lose my baby.

How could he have gotten himself into this, he has always been cautious when he is driving.

Once I arrived at the hospital, I parked my car and headed straight to the desk.
"What room is Shawn Mendes at?" I asked the the receptionist.

"Room 374 sweetie, on the North Wing" she said.

I ran so quickly to the elevator, slammed my fingers across the elevator buttons.

So many thoughts were running through my head. I cant lose him, I love him. I dont know what I would do without him. The elevator door opened, I looked to my left to find Mr and Mrs Mendes.

Mr Mendes had is arm around hos wife tryin to calm her down as she was crying.

I sat on the floor with my knees to my chest crying, that was the only thing I could do right now.

The doctor came out and said "Maya? Mr and Mrs Mendes? You son Shawn has a slight head injury so youll need to take it easy on him and has a broken leg, other than that he is fine."

Just then I let out a breathe I didnt know I held in.

"Can I go and see him?" I asked the doctorz. He nodded his head signalling me to go in.

As soon as I walked in, I burst into tears just seeing him there all pale with his eyes closed.

Shawn was never mine but he was at the same time. I loved him even though we would fight and argue, he would always be the one Id go to. I love him.

"Please wake up. What have I got to live for if I dont have you? You are strong shawn, I believe that you could fight anything and this would just be the level 1"

He had a bandage rapped round his head, his leg was in a cast.

Id do anything to see that annoying smirk of his right now, whatever it was that annoyed me of him. Id die to see them even if it was for the last time.

My lip quivers as my heart sinks.
I was hoping to see Shawn sat with me smiling or laughing. But he's not.

I run my thumb along Shawns cold, yet so soft lips. His eyes fluttered open "omg shawn youre okay" I hugged him so tight. I heard him chuckle slightly.

Im just so happy that he is alive and breathing. That Shawn is right here with me, smiling just as I wished to see him.

I dont care anymore. Shawn is alive and thats all I care about. He is here with me and nobody else.

I was so scared of losing him, he was all I ha left. Jonah didng do me any good, when he flirted with girls I wouldve let it slide whereas if I spoke to Shawn, Jonah would get angry. He hated me speaking to biys as friends but he thinks its ok to flirt with other girls when in a relationship with me.

I need to end things with him, but how? Its not that easy.

"Hey darling" he said, just smiled at how came he was being for someone in a hospital bed.

He took my hand in his, squeezed it really tight and said "Maya no matter what ever happens to me, us in the future just know that I love you with all my heart"

I squeezed his hand, leaned in so our lips brushed eachothers, cupped his cheeks in my hand and kissed him. It wasnt like our normal kisses, it was passionate, you could feel all the emotions and tension from before all just release.

We broke the kiss to catch our breath, our forwards leaning against eachothers and with that...

"I love you so much Mendes"

Authors Note:
Who do you think did this to Shawn?
So I was also on the verge of tears when writing this.
Im doing a double update to apologise for not updating the last two days.
Ive been so busy but thats no excuse.
Hope you liked this chapter! 🌙