secret love || s.m

16. fix you

"Why cant I hold you in the street. Why cant I kiss you in the dance floor"

maya

I attempt to text Jonah to tell him how sorry I am because I don't think he's ever experienced heartbreak, but I'll let him suffer for a little bit since he did screw around with other girls while we were together.

I pace back and forth in my room, afraid of losing Shawn, but my subconscious is telling me to call and beg him to talk.

I don't have anything to lose so, I dial his number about 6 times before he could answer, it took a lot of convincing, and I've never heard him use so many curse words in my time of knowing him but I pray that he'll fight for us.

I unplug my phone from the outlet, and I decide on the front steps of my house for Shawn's arrival.

Two hours rolled by and the sun has already gone, I'm still sitting like an arsehole in the dark, waiting for the muffin-loving Canadian.

I thought that he would at least try, clearly disappointed I sigh and walk over to his house.

"Night Mrs.Mendes. Is Shawn home?" I ask, I'm sure that I look like I crawled out a dumpster. "He's right upstairs honey. Come in" she says sweetly and I contemplate whether or not I should go to him, he did stood me up though.

Eff this, I say sucking in a deep breath and I knock on his bedroom door, it was already open to I invited myself in.

My heart is pounding in my chest, as a sleeping Shawn is revealed.

His arm is slinging off the bed, his hair is messy and his pink lips are slightly parted, and a fucking black eye.

"Can you be any cuter?" I say kissing his forehead and he stirs before sitting up and I jump "I can be way cuter, when I'm not covered in drool" he says with a husky voice.

I'm going to need to drink a gallon of water from how thirsty I am for him.

"You stood me up" I say, and my voice cracks. "Oh shit. I didn't mean to" he says checking the time. "I thought you wanted nothing to do with me" I sniffle and his eyes soften as he reaches his arms out to me, and I sit at the edge of his bed. "I broke up with Jonah" I say and he sighs "I know, how'd you think I got the black eye? My best friend decked me for stealing his girl it but we're good now" he explains and my eyes flutter closed. "I need to apologize to him. The guilt is killing me" I confess and Shawn agrees with me

"What about us? Are we good Maya?"

Shawn makes me feel things that Jonah never did, and I think that's one of the many reasons why I love Shawn.

He's not only sweet, humble and hella sexy, a few of his amazing traits, but my favorite quality of his, is that he's got a whole lot of heart.

"We're great. I'm sorry for distancing myself from you and acting like a total douchebag.

My mom would be disappointed if she knew how unkind I was to my favorite girl in the world" he says, taking my hand, he brings it over his heart and my breath hitches.

"Shawn" I say and my voice is barely audible. "I'm willing to take this as slow as you want, but just know how incredibly sorry I am" Shawn says and his eyes are glossy.

"I'm willing to fight for us. Are you?" I say, gazing at him. "Always" he responds, making me fall further into the deep end.

Authors Note:
All creds go to my amazing friend lotpshawn she took the time to write this chapter and it is incredible!
Read her book called 'Insane' it is literally INSANE.
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