Paper doll

Chapter 19

Chloe's POV

I run straight into the house, no one seems to be around, I think they had to go out somewhere quickly, that's probably for the best

I get out some paper and a pen, I have to leave him a note, I can't say this in person, I would break, I wouldn't be able to finish a sentence let alone explain all of this

I write down everything I need to say, about how I'm sorry that I have to leave him, how I was sorry if I hurt him

And the I told him what Jared told me I had to about Gracie and who her father is, I hate having to say that the most out of all of this, that's gonna destroy him to read

I sign the letter then leave it on his desk, I grab all of mine and Gracie's things and pack them up as fast as I can, I put Gracie in her car seat and then call a cab

Soon the cab arrived and I'm still alone in the house, the driver helps me get everything sorted out and then soon we're on our way to the airport

*flashback*

"Dear god it hurts!" I screamed as I squeezed my uncles hand in pure agony

"You've got a this Chloe, come on, you got this far, not that much longer now" he coaxed me into it and spurred me on

I wanted to give in so badly, I just wanted all this pain to stop

"DEAR GOD WHY?!" I screamed, I swear to god it wasn't supposed to be this bad

"Come on, push!" My doctor called out to me

I screamed and I cried, I really had no pain threshold whatsoever and this was brutal to me

"Squeeze my hand as hard as you need sweetheart, just get through this and you'll have an amazing little baby" my uncle reminded me

Another contraction came on and the doctor yelled at me to push, I was yelling out in pain as I did what the doctor was instructing me to do

20 agonising minutes later

"One final push and it's all over" the doctor told me

"You've got his Chloe, come on!" My uncle encouraged me

"Agggahhhhhhhhhhh" I screamed at the top of my lungs

I pushed with everything I had, let everything go and then I could finally gasp with relief, I led back as they took my little baby away

"She's not crying! Why isn't she crying?!" I yelled, crying myself

Then suddenly the room was filled with the little cries of the baby I just brought into the world

"Congratulations, it's a little girl!" The nurse told me excitedly as she wrapped her up in blankets and then brought her over to me

I was handed my daughter and I just say their in utter amazement, I was a mother, this little baby girl in my arms was my daughter

She was my responsibility and the first thing I said to her was swearing I'd be the best mom I could possibly manage to be

I don't think I kept my word

*flashback ends*

We were soon at the airport and within an hour were waiting to board a plane back to New York

I hate this and I hate myself for letting this happen, I should've just told Ryan when I found out I was pregnant

He'd have been there for me no matter what, he'd have been there for her no matter what, he'd have come with us, he'd have raised her as his own whether she was or wasn't

I'm so stupid, I wish none of this had ever happened

No, god no, I don't wish hat, I wouldn't have Gracie, Gracie is the only reason I keep going some days

But I just...I don't know, I guess this is how it is, I chose Jared, I made my bed and now I have to sleep in it, without Ryan

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Flashing back to Gracie's birth, she left for New York, lol had to make an adjustment to this to keep you guessing a little bit about a thing possibly, what will Ryan do when he finds that note? Xoxo