Paper doll

Chapter 21

Ryan's POV

"I'm sorry sir but that flight is about to take off" she tells me and my heart drops

I nod, thank her and walk away from the desk, I sit down on a chair and take a deep breath

It's too late

What if this wasn't Jared? What if this just was Chloe all on her own? Maybe she just snapped, she didn't want to come here

Maybe something happened with her mom? Maybe they had a fight? Or worse, when her mom was bad on the drink she'd smack Chloe around sometimes, I held her as she cried more than once

Maybe she just had enough, she and Gracie might just be better off without me

Oh god what if it was true? What if Gracie really isn't mine and I'm just trying to hold out hope

Maybe I got everything wrong, maybe none of this was true

My heart is just broken right now, I can't even describe how shattered I am, there isn't a word to explain this feeling

I sigh and stand up, I walk outside and the fresh air hits me and sends me back into the reality of it all

She's gone back to New York, she told me not to go after her

Maybe she's right, maybe I should just give up and leave them both alone, she's been fine without me for the last year, maybe I'm just an extra big in the wheel that's slowing them down

I get up, grab my keys and head back to my car, trying not to think about it but to be honest it's all I can think about

What else would there be?

I love her and she left me, oh and just to make it worse she took my supposed daughter although apparently she might not be my daughter

Dear god I give up

I get in my car and just drive around for a while , I need some time to think and I guess this is how I'm gonna get it

My head says I should go after her but my heart doesn't seem to agree anymore

I never thought there'd really be a day I gave up on her but I found her, I was with her, I thought we were going to stay together this time, maybe we could last but she just up and left me

I swore I'd protect her and she just left me, took Gracie and left me

She let me fall in love with that kid, she let me believe I was her father,she let me get to know her and start to build a bond with her and then she just took her away

What do I do now?

I feel so pathetic, dear god, why has all this happened? Why us?

Suddenly my phone vibrates and I pull into a gas station to check it

It's a text from my mom asking where I am, I text her back and tell her I'm on my way home

I drive back and then pull up onto the driveway, I get out, lock my car and then take a deep breath

This is gonna be so fun...not

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So he missed her and now he's second guessing everything, what happens now? Is it over? Has he given up? Could he finally be done? What do you think will happen? Xoxo