PURITY

- twenty eight -

.:: twenty eight - melancholy ::.

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"Sometimes I wish I was a girl." Tyler pouted as his older sister painted his nails with mint green nail polish. Tyler watching in awe as she perfectly covered his semi-long nails.

Cara frowned and glanced up at her brother. "Do you want to be a girl?" She asked curiously. Tyler hummed but shook his head no.

"I don't want to be a girl, but sometimes I wish I was. People wouldn't look at me so funny for wearing a dress, or holding Jishwa's hand." He mumbled, looking sadly at the table his palm was laying flat on.

Cara furrowed her eyebrows in thought. She had realized lately that Tyler had been going from being incredibly happy for a week, to abnormally sad and sleepy. Deciding to keep on eye out for her brother, she made a mental note on a few things that could be wrong with him, not liking where any of the choices could lead too.

"Well you know what I say?" The older brunette asked, closing the lid of the nail polish tightly before grabbing a different bottle that was filled with black paint and a small designing utensil.

"What?" Tyler asked, his eyes locking on Cara's as he awaited her response.

"I say fuck them. If you wanna wear a dress out in public, you wear that dress and you make everyone jealous at how hot you look in it! If you want to hold Josh's hand out in public, you hold Josh's hand and you smile at everyone who glares at you. Hell, blow them a kiss because they will just love that!" She exclaimed, smiling when she saw her baby brother giggling lowly to himself. "But most importantly, just know you're not alone. Remember when I was dating that girl Becca?" Cara asked as she started drawing little designs onto Tyler's nails.

The brunet nodded and bit his lower lip as he listened to her story. "We used to get judgmental looks from people because we would kiss in public without any fucks given, did that ever stop us from simply being us? Hell no." She explained, capping the black nail polish and fanning off Tyler's hands.

The brunet let out a sigh, but nodded his head in understanding of what she was saying. "Sometimes I just want it to stop. I get that mama always kept me safe from the bad guys, but, it feels like whatever I do, people don't agree with and they can be so mean." He whined, hanging his head down as a few tears started to fall slowly down his cheeks.

Cara could feel herself getting choked up as her brother silently cried. She hated how he was thinking in the most negative way he could, and it pained her to know that it could be a permanent thing.

"You know, how about we do something that used to always cheer you up." The older girl said as she pushed away the strands of hair that fell into her eyes, and got up off her bed, heading to Tyler's closet.

The younger brunet tilted his head like a lost puppy dog, and watched his sister grab out his Bluetooth speakers and her phone. Connecting the wireless device, the familiar sound of marina and the diamonds started to ring out around the room.

"Were having a makeover and a photo shoot." Cara turned around smiling happily... until she saw Tyler wasn't really smiling at all.

"Bubba, what's wrong?" She asked, deciding to take a break as the fun sister and go straight to her shrink habits she had picked up from a few people she had met back at the college.

Tyler just shrugged. "I don't really know, it's just... everything hit me so suddenly. Cara I don't want to be forced to live with mama. I wanna stay here were I'm safe. I just want to be happy again!" He whined, more tears falling as he threw his hands over his eyes to hold up his head.

"What do you mean?" She asked, wanting to hear it from Tyler herself instead of jumping to conclusions.

"Everyday I have been feeling like I could just break at any moment. It feels like one small push the wrong direction will send me tumbling down a never ending hill, and I just keep falling and falling. The only time I'm happy is when I'm with Josh, but sometimes being with him, like in public, makes it worse. I just want it stop. I want to be happy. I just want to be happy." He whimpered.

And that's when Cara started to cry. She feared that her worst fear was coming true.

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After hysterically crying for almost an hour, Tyler had fell asleep on his bed as Cara ran her fingers through the soft wavy brown strands, knowing that Tyler enjoyed that as a kid. Standing up from the bed, she placed the fluffy blankets over her younger brothers shoulders, and walked out of the room closing the door behind her.

The brunette texted Joshua asking for him to stop by the house for a brief moment, and continued walking dow the stairs to get to the kitchen. She playfully grimaced when she saw her father kissing his boyfriend in a loving way. Smiles gracing both their faces as they laughed about something probably idiotic.

"Hey, do you mind?" Cara asked jokingly, leaning up to grab out a coffee cup, filling it with water to put into the coffee machine.

"It's my house, I can do whatever I want to." Charlie laughed.

The sound of the water heating up was heard as a knock sounded through the living room. "I got it!" Travis smiled, kissing Charlie's cheek before rushing off to the front door to reveal a pink haired boy standing there.

"Hey." He said, stepping through the threshold to step into the house. Travis guided Joshua into the kitchen where everyone had been, besides Tyler.

"Where's Tyler?" Joshua asked as he spotted Cara stirring what smelt like coffee.

"Yeah, I haven't seen him running around her all day today." Charlie added on with a shocked expression, wrapping an arm around Travis' waist.

"Something's wrong with Tyler." Is all the brunette said.

"What do you mean something's wrong with Tyler?" Josh asked the brunette as he leaned against the kitchen counter, sharing glances with Charlie and Travis.

"I mean, something's wrong with my brother. Psychologically." She said with a sniffle, her hands wrapping around a coffee mug as she took sips of the coffee that sat inside.

"What's wrong with him?" Charlie asked.

"I think Tyler's depressed." She said, and Josh's heart stopped.

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Unedited.
another obstacle has been added. i was gonna start working on making him have bipolar disorder, but i felt like that might be a little too much for this fic.

so we will be diving more into that as soon as possible. oh and please don't hate me.

|-/ shay xx