PURITY

- twenty nine -

.:: chapter twenty nine - memories ::.

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After Cara came up with the conclusion that Tyler could be suffering with depression, everyone had went silent as they took in the information. Joshua knew that him having depression wouldn't make Josh love Tyler any less, it would just make him want to do the exact opposite.

Love him even more.

Hearing the news that it could be possible for Tyler to have depression made Joshua really think about his past. He had a cousin that he was really close to, they were best friends, they got their first tattoo illegally put on their body at the age of fifteen together, they spent every moment terrorizing their neighborhood, and they practically lived with each other their whole life. The only thing that changed about their close relationship was the fact that his cousin Oliver, was no longer living in their world.

He was diagnosed with severe depression after he was diagnosed with ADHD. He hated being "different" because of his disorder, and eventually that was enough. So as Josh sat at the edge of Tyler's bed glancing over at the brunet every time he moved to get comfortable, he couldn't help but think of his cousin and how he wasn't there to save him.

Reaching into his pocket, he grabbed out an already rolled joint and moved over to Tyler's window to go out onto the roof. Opening it up he crawled through the threshold and sat down on the middle of the structure, his hand reaching back into his pocket to grab out his lighter. He lit the joint, and brought it up to his lips just wanting to give his mind a break from all of the thoughts running through it.

Looking up the sky, Joshua smiled at the memory of his cousin and looked over towards the window when he heard it open. A sleepy looking Tyler looked at him with one eye half lidded and the other gently closed.

"What are you doin' joshie?" He asked, his voice a little croaky from sleep.

"Smoking." Josh responded, showing the joint to the brunet leaning out the window. With a small pout, Tyler crawled through the window, Joshua's button up hanging down his shoulder beautifully as he walked closer to the pink haired boy.

The brunet took a seat next to Josh and rested his head on his shoulder as he let out a quiet yawn.

"How you feeling, my love?" Josh asked before taking another drag from the drug.

Tyler shrugged his shoulders and craned his neck to kiss the pale skin of Joshua's neck. "Better." He sniffle slightly, his eyes shutting as he took in the small breeze and sound of his boyfriend blowing out smoke.

"Can you do something for me?" Josh asked after a moment of silence, his fingers lowering away from his mouth as he turned to stare up into the sky.

"I'd do anything for you Jish." The brunet lazily smiled, his brown wide doe eyes taking in Joshua's side features, from his jawline, to the crinkles under his slightly droopy eyes, and the cute nose that rested upon his face.

"J-just promise me, that when you're feeling down, you'll talk to someone." Josh said softly, turning to look at the brunet who sat criss-cross on the roof of the house.

Tyler sadly smiled and nudged his nose against the pale skin expanding over Joshua neck, pressing a soft kiss to the area before looking it back up at his older boyfriend. "I promise joshie. I love you." He whispered.