"Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the failure of them all?"
It tells me what I want to hear.
"Why you of course.
You've had so many chances
and you've fucked them all up.
You're terrible with people
You're weak
You're ugly
And try working a bit harder on your low self esteem
You stupid freak."
"But it's not my fault!
I was bullied as a kid
Put down
And never really got back up."
"Just excuses
You could have risen above it
Triumphantly like a hero.
You could have taken the experience
And you could have learned from it.
But instead you wield it like a shield
Deflecting all the blame from yourself."
"But from it I never learned to socialise
I was eternally put on the back foot
When it came to dealing with people.
I've suffered horrible emotional pain
From someone I thought I loved
And now I find it hard to believe
Anyone could love me."
"That was one girlfriend
That you should have pegged as bad.
Frankly you've poor judgement too.
And don't pull the not loved card
You've got loving parents
Loving family
Even bloody dogs that miss you.
There's millions more people in the world
In a far worse situation than you.
Man up."
"But I feel like I'm disconnecting
I'm becoming jaded.
I used to be a bright-eyed idealist
And now everthing's getting to me.
I think I'm bi-polar.
I'm hating people as a whole
I'm hating the world for being careless
And I hate myself for being insignficicant
For being worthless
For being me."
"Well hey, you're doing something right."
"Huh?"
"You're opening your fucking eyes
The world sucks
People suck
Everything sucks
And in the long run nothing matters
We're just a brief moment in existence
And when the moment is over
Everything is rendered moot.
No one will remember us or any of our accomplishments.
You ARE worthless.
You ARE insignficant.
Everyone's right down there at your level."
"Here's my counter argument:"
"Oh, do tell."
SMASH
"Fuck, that's a deep cut."
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Letting it Flow
PoetryLatest: Abyssal: Lonely I'll be, under the sea. Collection of my thoughts, feelings and all the stuff like that put in the form of either bad poetry or bad mini-stories. Either way, read it and call me a weirdo, I always liked being called that.