Letting it Flow

Conversation with my Mirror

"Mirror mirror on the wall

Who's the failure of them all?"

It tells me what I want to hear.

"Why you of course.

You've had so many chances

and you've fucked them all up.

You're terrible with people

You're weak

You're ugly

And try working a bit harder on your low self esteem

You stupid freak."

"But it's not my fault!

I was bullied as a kid

Put down

And never really got back up."

"Just excuses

You could have risen above it

Triumphantly like a hero.

You could have taken the experience

And you could have learned from it.

But instead you wield it like a shield

Deflecting all the blame from yourself."

"But from it I never learned to socialise

I was eternally put on the back foot

When it came to dealing with people.

I've suffered horrible emotional pain

From someone I thought I loved

And now I find it hard to believe

Anyone could love me."

"That was one girlfriend

That you should have pegged as bad.

Frankly you've poor judgement too.

And don't pull the not loved card

You've got loving parents

Loving family

Even bloody dogs that miss you.

There's millions more people in the world

In a far worse situation than you.

Man up."

"But I feel like I'm disconnecting

I'm becoming jaded.

I used to be a bright-eyed idealist

And now everthing's getting to me.

I think I'm bi-polar.

I'm hating people as a whole

I'm hating the world for being careless

And I hate myself for being insignficicant

For being worthless

For being me."

"Well hey, you're doing something right."

"Huh?"

"You're opening your fucking eyes

The world sucks

People suck

Everything sucks

And in the long run nothing matters

We're just a brief moment in existence

And when the moment is over

Everything is rendered moot.

No one will remember us or any of our accomplishments.

You ARE worthless.

You ARE insignficant.

Everyone's right down there at your level."

"Here's my counter argument:"

"Oh, do tell."

SMASH

"Fuck, that's a deep cut."