The Doctor Dances

10. Voices In My Head

🎀 A\N:  Suspense…  Will Clair stay like this or will everything change?  I’m pretty lazy most days but I just went running and was like bloody hell, I didn’t even start the chapter before today so sorry if it sucks…. ByTheWay you guys were totally awesome, not like I ever doubted you, over 50 reads and 5 votes but no comments :(  I really need to know what you guys think so give me something, please…

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Clair’s P.O.V. (All In Her Head, Cause She’s Mental, Just Kidding)

Another being was taking over my mind, I couldn’t think clearly without another voice suggesting something despicably dark in nature.  Unnervingly I think this voice may be another part of me, the part I never have the chance to let out.  Currently I was spilt in two, light and dark, right and wrong.  Right now, there was an internal war inside my head, the other voice was stronger, starting to control my body which was fully integrated with the casing.  I had access to most of the Cybermen’s files and with all the time I suddenly seemed to have, read a brief history of what changed them to this.  At least I was part of the newest generation where the people were still physically inside instead of just integrating the beings brain as with the old system.  But my mind was slipping away, the voice inside my head was meant to crush all other beings lifeforce leaving it for the Cybermen’s design and purpose.

Stop trying to fight, just give up and let us gain control, we’re so much more efficient.

Great, there it goes again.  The never ending reminder that I’m not all human and may never be again save for the one man that could help.  The only way to keep the voice out of my memories was an invisible door.  A blockade that was slowly wearing at the edges, breaking away from unmeasured pressure.

Don’t block me out, its just going to make this whole experience harder for you.  The conversion will always happen whether you want it or not.

Your lying, I can near it in your tone.  You’re scared The Doctor can save me and there’s nothing you can do about when he comes.

Oh but your wrong, if we get to him first.  You know what will be of him then.  Deleted, deleted forever.

That’ll never happen.  He’ll be here before you know it, getting me outside of this monstrous project.

Dear, your letting your anger get in front of you, your blockade is slipping now I can see through those doors.

Lying again I see, can you never learn that I can also see through you with all your empty threats.  What’re you trying to hide, I can here the hesitation. 

Suddenly all my senses were blocked off, hearing particularly well.  Someone was out there, someone who was trying to save me.  The Doctor just left me, he didn’t even turn around when he left before so why would he come back for me.  That creature was already getting to me, letting my fears seep though and hope recede back.  I’m sick of all the horrible feelings put inside me, I just need to gain my senses but I always come so close but ever far away.

Giving up I let the walls down, memories flooding threw my mind.  I was 8, walking through the snow, a branch dropped into the pristine white making me realize everything can be changed in an instant, fantasy finally breaks through the walls of reality and everything becomes clear.  The next memory was the first time I met the Doctor.  Fear and anger mixed through my mind, the next thing that crossed my mind was how much I wanted to slap him.  God, I’m really bipolar, right now every single emotion is crossing through my mind.

A flash interrupted my thoughts, making me realize that the thing inside me became demolished instantly.  It couldn’t handle the thought of emotion and feelings at such a rapid rate.  Emotions weren’t Cybermen’s favorite thing, they put absolute terror into some hearts, or well I don’t know what do Cybermen have?

I could hear all the commotion outside and all because of one man. 

Doctor’s P.O.V.

Sometimes I’m such an idiot.  I just left her there without thinking about the consequences of my actions.  I might’ve rushed back before thinking better of it, she was probably being converted at this second which was something I couldn’t ever allow.  All my life, I’ve felt so guilty about how I’ve left my companions.  Pain was a common factor in all these events, I always let them go too fast or without ever saying goodbye.

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A\N:  Here’s the chapter I promised, finally.  Okay, so next update will be Monday, unless you want me to update on Saturday instead.  This book may wrap up in ten chapters but I'm defiantly going to make a sequel including new adventures.

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