Immortal love

Under the Covers

I was under the cover just thinking. I needed to think so that's what I did. It was raining, perfect weather to just think. I only really started raining when I got home, but I didn't run into anybody at the train station, thank god. I was just under my cover thinking. Did he really say he loved me, twice? This can't be real, it can't be. Why do I feel like all of this has happened before, like he's said he loved me but I said I loved him back. Why can't I just say I love him, because I do. Does Trent love me, because I still love him. Yeah, he's an asshole but I still love him. Why, why do I love people that don't love me back. I mean Zander loves me back but is he telling the truth, probably not. I'm just Rena, no one can love me. Trent, Tytin, Jase and Wyatte. None of them loved me, I loved them though. Except for Jase I really hated him. I'm pretty sure he hated me just as much. He called me slut and a whore most of high school, he is such a dick. He cheated on me too, with my best friend. I wonder how many peopled like me in highschool, probably none. I mean I'm not pretty, average intelligence and I was pretty annoying back then. I'm surprised I had any friends. Why did my friends stay with me the whole time, they probably didn't actually care about me. I mean they're not my friends now so they probably hated me. I was crying now, then my phone went off. It's been about an hour, have I been crying that long. It was Zander, I actually had a lot of texts from him.

"Hey" Zander texted. 

"R u ok"

"Hello"

"Why arent u answering"

"Whats wrong"

"Im coming over"

"Im outside." The last text was sent 20 minutes ago. Has he been outside for twenty minutes. I went to open my door and there he was, soaked and wet with hid umbrella over a giant teddy bear.