It's been 3 weeks since I hung out with Black! Things has been great between us. We're not dating we're just friends getting to know each other. Omg he's great though, he's like a breath of fresh air. He always seems to call or text at the right time. Here lately I've been really missing my family and so down and depressed about Neef. I talk to my mom often but not enough she's back working at the hospital and her hours are crazy.
I haven't been talking to Mo much either she's a lot more busy these days! She has work, school and most importantly mommy duties. Mils she's doing her thing out Cali so we haven't really been able to to talk either! Of course Ki & Neef still aren't talking to me! That's fine I have no desire to communicate with them either!
It's just sometimes I wish I could feel like I have family! I just been feeling alone a lot lately! My friends are always there but it's different! E keeps telling me to go visit, but I don't feel like I'll be wanted there. So I don't!
Black🌚: Hey Big Head I'm Out Front.....
Me: Omw Down....
I grabbed my bag and took a last look at my self in the mirror! I looked good I wore and black faux leather pencil shirt, with a black crop top sheer lace shirt. I wear my ankle boots with my toes cut out and gold Chanel hand wallet. My accessories is all gold. My makeup was on point and so was my hair. I wore it in a high bun with full bangs. It's was to hot to wear long hair today!
I headed down stairs to meet Black. I got into the car and we pulled off!
How are you this evening? He said
I'm ok! How you? I asked him
I'm good, I'm so happy that you decided to accompany me to this event. You look beautiful might I add!
I blushed and smiled at him before I thanked him and told him he looked very nice as well! He matched my fly to the T!
He wore all back as well, he had on some black fitted lacks with some black Gucci loafers, and a black T with gold accessories. We was matching and didn't even know.
I see you tryna dress like me now? He added
Yeah whatever you tryna dress like me! I told him rolling my eyes playfully.
Yeah, I am I'm really digging your style and I think we make a nice looking couple! He said and I smiled. He always try's to throw that in every now and again. I always reacted the same way. A small giggle and a smile.
I really like Black, he's been very good to me so far this summer. But I'm not gonna act like I don't still love my husband and I won't take it there. I tell him this all the time, I can't blame him for wanting more! Because deep down I want more from him as well! But I'm married and I won't disrespect our union by letting another man play in what's already spoken for.
Even though I know my husband isn't honoring our union. I know that for sure, MO's been telling me that Neef hasn't been coming home. He's been doing some other shit, she caught him at the mall with some girl a few weeks ago. Which I knew for a fact he did on purpose. He wanted her to tell me! But that's fine he can do what he wants. Even some of his bitches be calling me. Telling me about what they been doing to my husband. I'm so hurt by that.
The rest of the drive I was thinking about my marriage and where it at now. I was so caught up in my thoughts I didn't even noticed we had came to a stop.
Are you ready? He said while opening my door for me!
Yes, I said shaking outta my thoughts!
We walked up to the door where it was well dressed doormen waiting.
