Back at school now, and I haven't talked to Black in two weeks! I talked to his sisters though! They said he's laying low. Whatever the fuck that means! I'm so heart broken though, I just feel so alone! I haven't been hanging out or anything. Just classes and back to my dorm. I just don't feel like being bothered! I don't eat much either and I've lose more weigh, as well!
I only have a few weeks left of school so I'm trying to ride this out and keep it moving! Already have a job set up back in philly! Richard and Erick set it up for me!
I told them I can't come back to New York yet! They understood and got me a job with this fabulous designer in Philly! I'm so excited about that.
Ring............ Ring...........
Hello, I said answering my phone!
Did you eat today,Ni? Neef asked
No! I'm not hungry! I said
Well I'm coming up with some food you need to eat! He said hanging up before I could get a word out!
Great! I said out loud falling back on to my bed! I haven't done anything but wash my ass today! I didn't fit my hair or even try to really get dressed! I wore my gray sweatpants and a white tee! Some Gucci flip flops!! To be honest I'm not changing or anything! I'm just gonna look like this! I told myself getting up to look in the mirror at myself looking a whole dirty mess!
I started on my homework waiting on Neef! I had some papers to finish. I was done one assignment by the time neef arrived! I went down to let him in! I gave him a little hug and we went back up to my room!
What's up baby girl? He asked as he sat on my bed!
Nothing just homework! I told him
You looking slimmer baby? He said
Well I haven't had a appetite lately! I said
You still haven't talked to the bull yet? Neef said
Nooooooo, I yelled outta anger!
It's ok, you don't deserve that! He said rubbing my back!
I didn't say anything back I just allowed him to massage me! I was tense and I need that! He rubbed me down good, I felt like a ton of shit was lifted of my shoulders! After he massaged me we eat! I'm not gonna lie that food was delicious and I was honestly very hungry!
It's good right? Neef asked as he's fucking his food up too
Yes! I was so hungry, I said as I finished my food first!
I got ice cream and cookie too! Neef said handing me a shopping bag!
What you Tryna do fatten me up again Sineef?
Yes, that ass getting little! You know I like that fat ass butt! He told me laughing
Whatever nigga! I said checking my email!
Oh shit, classes are cancelled for the rest of the week! It's a flood in the building! I said to him.
Damn what you gonna do? He said
I don't know but I sure wouldn't mind a nice hot bath. I told him
Well our tub is clean! He said
