circles // laucy

vegas (pt 2)

"Should we call an ambulance?" Ally asks, taking over the responsible role without thinking about it for even a second.

"I don't know I don't know how much she drank and how much she smoked. Just call a cab, please." Lauren's on her knees next to Lucy's limp body, "Baby, are you still there? Do you feel sick?"

Lucy nods faintly, cheek rubbing against the dirty floor, lips parted slightly.

"I saw her for most of the night. I don't think she drank any more after she smoked so she should be fine." The same guy from earlier tells Ally, whose fingers are hovering over the numbers on her phone.

"So no 911?" she asks, tears threatening to fall as she watches Lauren try to lift Lucy's limp body into sitting position, the barely conscious girl frowning and shaking her head as she's moved around.

"No 911. Just make sure she stays hydrated and doesn't choke on her puke or anything."

Ally can't help but pull a nasty face after he says that while she looks through her calling history to find the number of the cab company.

"Don't touch me." Lucy murmurs before doubling over like she's about to throw up. And Lauren knows it's the bad trip but she still thinks about the possibility of Lucy having seen her with Camila on the dancefloor.

"The cab will be here in 10, I'm paying like double the usual fee." Ally announces in a shaky voice when she reaches the rest of the girls after thanking the guy that helped her and exchanging phone numbers to keep him updated.

"What would we do without you, Alz." Normani musters a small smile in Ally's direciton all while trying to keep a very drunk Camila upright and comforting a very upset Dinah.

"Okay, Lo, we gotta get her outside now."

"There's no way she can move without puking her guts out."

"Lauren, we need her out of here, let's go."

As Ally's about to step in and help Lauren carry Lucy Dinah takes over, "Let me help, Smallz." she sniffles and wipes her tears, "You help Mani with Mila." Ally nods thankfully and the girls make their way outside, the crowd splitting open to let them pass through.

They're in a cab, trying to hold Lucy upright while presenting her with a plastic bag and offering her water every once in a while when things go from bad to worse.

"Turn it off." Lucy's breath starts getting heavy as she frowns, "Turn off the music!"

"Honey, there's no music playing." Ally whispers, softly rubbing her hands up and down Lucy's shaking arms.

The girl just shakes her head and whimpers.

A fresh loud of tears fills Lauren's eyes, "I'm so sorry, Luce, this is all my fault."

"That's nonsense why would it be your fault? Don't beat yourself up, Laur."

"No, you guys don't understand she must've seen me and Camila-"

"Seen you and Camila what, Lauren?" Normani asks from the seat behind her, jaw clenched. She looks down at the passed out girl next to her as Lauren musters the courage to respond.

"Mani, I was drunk and-"

"Is this a joke?!" Ally interrupts her, "Lauren I think you should stay away from her until she's sobered up." Ally hasn't sound this wound up all night.

Luckily they've arrived at the tour buses.

"You can't tell me that! We all know I'm the only one that knows how to take care of her right now."

"You're also the only person that knows how to break her heart and get her in this position in the first place." Ally glares at her younger and member as the cab driver opens the door for them. "Yeah, Lucy told me everything you did. If you really care about her, which you haven't shown enough if you ask me, you get out of the cab and stay in the other tour bus until we text you."

Lauren opens her mouth to defend herself by closes it when she realizes no one seems to be on her side. Hell, she isn't even on her side. She knows she messed up bad. So she just nods and gets out, tears still running down her cheeks at top speed as she listens to the girls help Lucy behind the bus, back leaning against the cold metal, the combination of tears, alcohol and her lack of clothing causing her to shiver uncontrollably.

When the girls must have almost reached the bus Lauren hears something that sounds like someone choking followed by what she can only guess are the contents of Lucy's stomach connecting with the floor and it immediately makes her stomach convulse as well.

"I'm so sorry." she whispers, sliding down the bus onto the cold, hard ground. "There isn't a universe in which I deserve you. Not even my dream universe."

From her position the ground she hears heels clicking on the surface near her, "Get up before you catch a cold." Dinah's soft and kind voice makes Lauren look up to find the Polynesian holding a sleeping Camila in her arms bridal style.

"Help me out?" she asks, eyes moving from Lauren to the closed door in front of her. Lauren quickly nods and gets up, fishing the keys out of her bra and opening the door to let Dinah and Camila inside.

Once all three of them are on the bus and Lauren's bloodshot, swollen eyes meet Dinah's soft, brown ones she can't keep it in any longer. When she starts sobbing she feels Dinah's arms wrap around her.

"I'm such an idiot. I keep messing it all up. I-it's like I want everyone around me to suffer!"

"You're an idiot but it's not on purpose, Lo. You were drunk and Camila was obviously provoking you. I'm not saying that cause I saw anything but because I know how she feels about you. Not that I'm supposed to tell you that but you have a right to know after all these years."

Lauren nods, sniffling softly as Dinah rubs her cold arm comfortingly. "I knew just like with Lucy. But I'm such a fucking pussy. I keep hurting them both."

"Hey, you only recently admitted your attraction to girls to yourself. You've barely been able to act on it for the past 3 years so you doing whatever you did with Mila I don't- I don't blame you fully, Lauren. Please don't give up on yourself. Or her. You can fix this, don't let Ally or Mani stop you. You know how protective they get because you're the same way."

"But they're right, Dinah. All I do is hurt her."

"If that were true she wouldn't be in love with you."

"But what if love isn't enough?" Lauren sits up to look at her friends, "What if I hurt her too much?"

Dinah shakes her head and softly wipes Lauren's tears from her face, "A love like the one you have with Lucy." she looks over at Camila, who's softly snoring, before looking at Lauren again, "That's enough to handle anything. I know you, Lo, and I know that after everything you still deserve love. It's gonna take a lot of effort and patience but I can see it. I can see it in your eyes when you talk about her. I saw it tonight at the club, too. You looked at her like you would die for her in a heartbeat. I bet you've been looking at her like that since you were just a tiny ten year old you."

"What did I do to deserve you in my life?" Lauren musters a weak smile as she takes Dinah's hand.

"Like I said, you deserve love, Lauren."