Separate, But Made as One (Ashton Irwin Fanfiction)

Rough Nights

Brianna's POV

Nights have passed and I'm still sleeping downstairs. Everynight, I wait for Ashton's nightmares to start and I feel horrible not doing anything, but at the same time I can't bring myself to do it. Eventually, it was morning and I went through, yet another sleepless night. The boys came into kitchen, except for Ashton. They grabbed a stool to eat by the kitchen counter, while I planted myself back on the couch, exhausted.

" Did you get any sleep?" Michael asked taking a bite of his toast.

" What do you think?" I said knowing the answer to his question was obvious.

" Are you still.... together?" Luke asked.

" Honestly, I don't know." I answered, truthfully.

I want to forgive Ashton, but maybe we weren't meant to be. This could be the end of the road for us. I don't think there is a point of trying to continue it, if we're never going to see each other. Long distance will be too difficult; I'll miss him too much...... I think it's better to end it now, but I don't know. Maybe I'm making a mistake; maybe we should try to make it work. I was realeased from my thoughts, when there was an odd silence in the room. I looked up and saw Ashton walking around in the kitchen. He looked really bad. His eyes looked bloodshot; it was almost frightening. His messy hair was pushed back, hidden under a beanie. He caught me looking at him and I quickly turned away. He started walking towards me , but I turned my whole body opposite of him and croosed my arms. I took a quick glance at him and saw that he had an upset look on his face; he left the kitchen.

" Why do I have to be so stubborn!?" I meant to say to myself, but accidentally, said it aloud. The guys turned to me, like I was insane.

" Sorry." I said, embarrased, but they laughed it off.

The day went by pretty fast, and Luke came downstairs to hang with me, like he did every night to help me feel better.

I heard footsteps coming into the living room. I looked up and saw that it was Ashton. I noticed that he was crying, because his cheeks were stained.

"I'm gonna go, okay?" Luke whispered and hugged me one last time before getting up from the couch.

It was just Ashton and I in the living room.

" I hope you know, I don't have anything to say to you." I whimpered, about to cry again.

"I don't expect you to." He said and walked closer.

" I just want you to know that I really wanted to tell you, but I didn't know how. I didn't want you to worry about it and relax. To be honest, I didn't want to think it was true, either. I tried as hard as I could to convince my myself that you wouldn't be leaving me. Please, forgive me....It will be torture for me to fall asleep every night and wake up every morning, without you in the arms. I'm scared for my life, that you're going to find someone way better than me when I'm gone... I just- I don't wanna lose you, Brianna." He croaked out, while tears were streaming down his face. I just wanted to get up and wipe them away.

Every word he said, brought me to tears. Part of me is begging to forgive him right on the spot and hold him again. The other half is warning me not to and that he will hurt me again.

" I'll think about it." I ended up saying. Ugh! Why did I say that?!

He walked back upstairs, head down and disappointed.

It was around 1:00 in the morning so I went off to bed, well couch actually. All I could think about was Ashton. Should I forgive him and take on the challenges of long distance? Or am I better off not finishing something that maybe wasn't meant to be?

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