Broken link (LxLight Fanfiction)

Eighteen - Love

{L's POV}
I think the most logical way to describe love is confusing. Granted it's a lot more than that but as a whole I'd say it's confusing. I look at Light and I feel everything and nothing, and when I hear him speak I get nervous but I also feel relaxed.
I don't understand it at all and it really annoys me because I understand everything.

At this moment he'd been with me and Matt for about a week and he was sitting across from me at the, slightly rickety, old table. Lights friend Mihael was still in bed with Matt (and thank god for that as they were the best and worst pairing ever) so it was just us.

Light had got out of hospital about 5 days ago after staying in for 2. He had really terrible flu as it turned out but was almost fully recovered apart from a sniffly nose. For the 5 days he'd been staying with us we had talked about 3 times. He had stayed on the couch as opposed to staying in my room with me and he seemed kind of angry about everything.

I didn't understand that either. I'd said sorry and that I loved him. What else could I do?

"What else can I do?" I whispered to myself.

Lights head shot up from his cereal and he gave me a puzzled look, "what else for what?" He asked me.

I had said my thoughts aloud, which is one of my worst habits, and I was mortified. "I-I... uh?" I stammered and he smiled all wide and his eyes wrinkled.

"Did you say your thoughts out loud again?" He giggled and oh God was I in love with him.
I nodded in embarrassment, "sorry..." I said.

Surprisingly, Light was extremely amused, "you must stop doing that L people will think you're crazy!"

After the short lived conversation was over I thought about how I'd missed him. I'd missed the way he smiled when I messed up and I'd missed the way he didn't care. I wanted him to be with me forever, I wanted to be his.

"Hey Light have you dated anyone since... well me?" I asked, curiosity getting the better of me.

Light tried to talk but paused. There was this look in his eye. He looked so sad and for a moment I knew I was the reason he was alone.

"I waited for you to come back." He said solemnly.

That made my heart hurt and all the wind was taken out of my lungs and my eyes sort of filled with tears.

"No I haven't been with anyone else. At all." He said answering my question.

"Me either." I said to try and fill the silence. His eyes lit up when I said that, he looked relieved.

---(that night)---
{Light's POV}

I hated sleeping on that bloody couch. It was hard and springy and the house L lived in was so old and run down that I felt we'd be blown away if the weather got any worse.

I thought for a moment that night that I should just go upstairs to see L. He wouldn't be asleep I knew that, so I got up and tried to be quiet as I ascended the eternally creaking stairs.

As I stood outside of L's door with my hand about to knock, I got very nervous. Like something scary was going to pop out of the dark and take me away, so quickly I knocked and L answered.

"Ligh-" I didn't let him finish I just bounded into his room and slammed the door.

"What on earth? Are you alright?" L asked, clearly startled.

"Sorry I got... I didn't want to sleep on the couch can I crash in here?" I asked. I didn't want to tell him I was scared of the hallway just then, I didn't want to seem pathetic.

"Uh sure you can sleep in here." L replied and scratched the back of his head nervously. His hair was disheveled as it always had been and the dark circles under his eyes looked pronounced under the light of the moon. It was dark in his room and all I could see was him, glowing like an angel.

I sat down on his bed which was cold and unmade. He obviously hadn't slept in it in a while but maybe just not made it. L was very messy after all.

"It's quite late Light you should sleep." He stated and I knew he was right.
"Are you not joining me?" I asked and suddenly my heart jolted, "I-I MEAN!" I stammered and shouted in complete embarrassment. I felt my face grow hot and I saw L blush slightly under the gloomy light.

He walked towards me, hunched as always, with his hands in his pockets.
He took his hand and brushed it against my cheek, I closed my eyes and tried to stop the tears that had developed out of nowhere from falling.

I felt L get closer to me and I squeezed my eyes shut tighter. Then I felt him grab my chin and kiss me lightly.

The tears fell then and I kissed back passionately because in that moment I knew I truly loved him.