Imagines

Mercy - D. Salvatore/ Kol M.

Prompt: Reader is in love with Damon, but Damon is still in love with Elena.

Song - Mercy - Shawn Mendes/Pacify Her - Melanie Martinez

Y/N

I watch as Damon and Elena sit in a booth and act all lovely dove-y. I sat at the bar, drinking my fourth glass of whiskey, trying to dull the aching pain in my chest.

I hate Elena, not the jealously type of hate - though jealously does play in to it. No, I hate Elena because she acts like the victim all the time, makes everything about her. The hatred between us was mutual, but she hates me because I'm in love with Damon.

She over heard me telling Kol my feelings for Damon and once I got down talking to Kol and left, she threw me into a wall threatening that if I ever said anything to Damon, then she would rip my heart out herself. I could've fight back that night, but I'm in pain. I feel empty and broken, I'm tired.

Bale came up my throat, but I swallow it along with as much pain as I could. I could always turn off my emotions, but I don't want to lose myself.

I drown the rest of my whiskey, enjoying the burn, and leave the Mystic Grill. I get in my car, staring at the dash for the longest, empty minded, but tears still running down my checks. I felt numb, but not enough.

I finally put my keys in the ignition and drove off.

***

I pull up to the Salvatore Boarding house, hating that I live here with them. I get out of my car, slamming the driver door in the process.

I walk through the front door, turning on the lights that told me no one was home, and mentality thanking who ever is out there. I go straight over to Damon's bourbon supply, and start drinking from the bottle, no longer giving a single shit.

Once I drown my first bottle, I grab another, and turn on music.

I throw the bottle cap into the fire, and slide down the wall, feeling my life crumble apart. My mind wonders off, thinking about all the times I've seen Damon and Elena kiss, a few times Elena looking me in the eyes while kissing him, showing that he was hers. A rush of anger comes over me and I throw the half empty bottle into the fireplace, watching the flames get higher.

As I'm staring into fire, my mind is having a inter battle over if I should turn my emotions off or not.

Then, speaking of the Devil, Damon and Elena walk into the Boarding house, acting all lovely dove-y. I turn to them, tears still streaming down my cheeks, and take the last sip of bourbon, along with my humanity.

I close my eyes savouring the burning in my throat, the pain that I felt as I let go of my humanity. I open them back up, seeing Damon and Elena looking at me with concern, one with fake and the other with real concern.

"Are you all right, Y/N?" Damon asked, I laugh.

"I'm spectacular! I've never felt better." Elena had a terrified look on her face, good, she should be terrified.

"Did you turn your humanity off?" Damon asked in disbelief.

I laugh yet again, "Yep, it's nice! Why didn't no one ever tell how nice it feels? Not a worry in the world, no emotions, I don't know why it took me so long to finally flip that beautiful switch." I set the empty bottle down, and walk towards the couple, wanting to leave and explore this new feeling.

"What happened Y/N, what's wrong?"

"Nothing anymore." As I past them, I grab Elena, gasps of terror escape her lips, Damon didn't move, too terrified.

"Stay out of my way." I whisper in her ear, while looking at Damon. I push her into Damon, and walk out of the house, towards my car.

Just as Damon is at the door step, look at me in horror, I back out, and drive off, not looking back.

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A/N: So I'm thinking about making this a mini series, idk.