Unhuman ≫ h.s.

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I clenched the sides of my tray tightly as I walked behind Zinex. I could hear whispering and a hush across the room as we made our way to a table. They didn't even try to make their talking subtle, I kept my head down refusing to look up, I just wanted this day over with, I just wanted to go home and just have everything go back to normal, but at the same time I wanted Harry. I looked up and saw a worried looking Zin.

'You okay Nora, you don't look alright" she said biting on her straw "If you need to leave early just tell me."

"Yeah, I'm okay just a little overwhelmed." I admited tucking my hair behind my ear.

I ate my soup slowly, I didn't need to rush since this lunch period was like 3 times longer than the one from my old highschool. I didn't even need to take up my tray people did it for me. Zin led me to the next class and we sat in the back like we did the other three classes before. I guess that's just where she sits.

This was art, I knew and art class when I saw one. I sat down at an easel and waited for the teacher to come in, other students took this time to socialize but I looked around the room. It was modern and had probably anything a painter, artist could ever ask for.

Finally and odd man with hair almost down to his shoulders walked in. He had three distinct dreads in his hair that were the color of Aqua. I studied his face for a long time. His feautres were exageratted, in a good way. He had a long thin nose and great cheekbones. He sat down and wrote something in a piece of paper. The class didn't lower their voices like they did when Mr. Payne came in. I wonder why.

Mr. Payne looked nothing like this guy. Both of them good looking just very different. I arched my back stretching my arms above my head. When I looked back at the teacher he was staring at me.

"Nora is it?" he said aloud.

I nodded.

"Welcome to Haverly," he said before turning to address the entire class," Now everyone, today's class will be fairly easy. All you have to do is paint, or draw what your feeling and thinking. Now don't be inappropriate with this. I want you to express yourself you can use whatever you like. Its due at the end of class...go!" he said picking up a book.

I sat down and watched as people picked up pencils and paint. I watched as two guys instead of working were throwing the paint at each other, real nice. I picked up a black piece of chalk and started right away. Usually I would do pre planning and lines and practice. Today I just wanted to try something different, I wanted to try a different technique. Try and experiment... so I just let my mind relax.

My hands glided and created curves and lines. Effortlessly my hands drew, I paid no attention on measurements and force. I thought of myself, how I've changed. I thought about the future and my plans. I thought of the past. I thought of Harry and just everything.

"Nora." Zin called.

I turned and looked at her.

"What are you doing?" she asked.

I didn't understand what she meant, "I uhh huh... What?" I asked.

She pointed to my canvas, I looked at it and gasped quietly. I drew Harry. I mean it looked so realistic down to every and each detail. The gleam in his eyes, the curls, you couldn't mistake it. It was the best and most perfect thing I had ever created. The shading and lines, the spacing all of it just percect. I was proud of it but I couldn't hand it in without bringing attention to myself. Everyone knew who Harry was.

"Paint over it." she said handing me black paint and a thick brush

I took it and dipped the brush in the paint. I got fairly close to the portrait when my hand stopped. I tried but it wouldn't move, I couldn't bring my hand any closer, I couldn't destroy it. I just couldn't.

"Nora you have to." she whispered.

I looked around and no one was concerned with us we were quiet and in the back. I turned my attention back to Zin and handed her the brush

"I-I can't you do it." I said looking at the beautiful piece in front of me.

I watched as the image of Harry turned into a black smear of paint. I cringed and watched as she crumpled it up and put it in the trash. She walked back up and sat down looking at me. I looked down ashamed, here she is risking so much to keep my safe and I can't even get rid of a drawing.

"Hey...hey nora its okay. I know what art means to you. I;m sorry but I did that for your sake and mine. It'll get easier I promise. Only a few weeks and your outta here" she whispered lightly grabbing my hand " now draw something cute like turtles, I love turtles. "

I smiled and nodded. About five minutes later I finished my drawing of a mother turtle leaving her eggs. It was cute and pretty good. Not perfect but good enough. The bell rung and I gathered my things. I placed my drawing with the others. Zin and I went to our next period. Luckily for me there was only one class that I didn't have With her and it was a study hall so it was okay. It was all going to be okay.

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I sat down on the bed. I threw off the heels and stripped from the clothing. As nice as it was it wasn't me. I asked Ellen to bring me some casual clothes, well my definition of casual clothes which involved no heels. I put on beige oversized sweater that looked more like a dress on me and paired it with some worn brown boots. No skirts or spikes, no hot pink metallic, just me. I took out my contacts and wiped my makeup off. I almost felt the same expect I was a blonde. Can't wait to dye my hair again, which would have to be like a couple weeks, I mean I don't want my hair to fall out. I jumped on the bed, I began talking to ellen like had been the past few nights. It's become some sort of routine.

"Hey ellen how old are you?"

"I'm two weeks old." she replied.

"You know that's pretty young for a computer system." I joked.

"I suppose, and how old are you?" she asked.

"18 now. I didn't really get to celebrate it ya know with cake and candles..." I trailed off "Its kind of young."

I played with the ends of my hair, and rolled on my side and then back up, "So ellen if you could be anything else in the world what would you be?" I asked.

"A human, I just want to know how it feels, and to just feel in general."

"Ahh good answer, what do you do when your bored ellen?" I asked.

"Read, update, update more information into my drive, and now I find my nights talking to you." she said quietly.

"Do you like talking to me, because I like talking to you. I like asking you questions because you always have an answer and they're always correct." I said laughing.

"That's funny, and yes I like talking to you, you amuse me with your stories of school and personal problems."

"You have no idea ellen, this school has some pretty eccentric people who just think their the- pardon my language... shit. When I assure you their really not."

I talked with ellen for a couple more minutes before I fell asleep thinking of a curly headed boy who (dare I say it) missed terribly.

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Hey guys insanly sorry for the late update but its been crazy here and like its been a rough week I hope your not to angry with me. I'll try to get more on top of things.

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