Unhuman ≫ h.s.

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Hey so I was grounded because...just a stupid reason anyone else get grounded over stupid reasons. Okay so here it is. Expand my story by commenting, voting, and sharing, ily guys

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I still heard his voice. It echoed around me filling my brain with hazed memories. I couldn't stand it, not because of him. Only because I wasn't with him. I knew his voice better than my own, which as of lately I've decided I don't want to hear if at all possible. Why speak? What's the point anymore.

"I hear him." I said shakily.

Clayton looked at me with empathy.

"I just want it to end. It hurts, don't you miss your family, your friends, didn't you have someone special to you. How can you be fine? Cause I'm not fine at all." I cried.

I was once again wrapped in his arms, this position coming so naturally to us anymore. He rubbed small circles into the small of my back.

"Shhh, I never said it was going to be easy, you've had no one for eight months, you'll get through this. To answer your questions yes I miss my family. I'll always miss them, my friends. I never really had someone special to me, only you." he said softly.

"No- I...I don't count." I sobbed.

He lifted my chin with his finger, I met his blue eyes but not for long.

He smiled, "You do to me."

I watched as he played with his hands, tapping his fingers against his thigh. My attention span getting shorter and shorter. His lips were a soft pink, I thought of when Clayton kissed me in the field of flowers. I remember how strange it felt, I wonder if it would be different now. I was positive his kisses would never effect me like Harry's. Clayton would never be able to make me feel like Harry and I hated that. Hated that I couldn't love Clayton like he loved me.

"I'm sorry" I stated quietly.

"What for?" he asked.

"For not being able to care and love you like you do for me. Its selfish, and I'm sorry. I never intended to hurt you or push you away. Please know that Clayton. It was different then." I continued.

He stepped back away from me as my lips neared his, "No its still very much different, I was wrong Natalie. I shouldn't have gotten angry with you. I shouldn't have expected you to love me. One day I'll find someone who makes me happy just like you do, and someone who doesn't already have someone. Someone I can connect with."

"Am I not good enough? We can be together now Clayton, just like you always wanted."I said with defeat.

"Your more than enough, but I know who your heart belongs too. I would never break you guys apart. You belong with him, and I need to find someone for me. I'll always love you babygirl." he replied.

"Clayton, I still need your help. I need to figure out where I'm going next, how to get out of this place. Wait what even is this again." I asked.

He laughed quietly, "No, I'm not leaving till I know your okay. This is Purgatory a place in between, not one but both, a bit of light and dark if you will, you were in a holding cell for eight months. A cell keeping your mind and memories captive. You could've left that cell earlier but you wanted to hold to your memories. When I told you to let go you freed yourself of negativity and sadness. Your memories are hazed but your mental well being is better now. You yourself can't really decide, fate is decided for you. Its what you say absent-mindly. The greater power is always listening." he said "how about we play a game.

I laughed at his sudden change of topic, I nodded my head in agreement none the less, wanting to lighten my mood.

"How about hide and seek." I said playfully.