Love In a Hoe's Paradise ( Urban Book. *EDITING/ON HOLD*)

Your Not Him 31

Sia ( 2 yrs later )

The cold October winds send chills down my spine as i walked down the sidewalk. October is never a good month for me. Around this time my life changed tremendously. Why ? Not because it was Mckenzie's birthday month, but two weeks after is when the killings started.

I wish i could go back and change everything. My heart just aches with pain just thinking about what i did. Gracey my sister my bestfriend. All she wanted me to do was respect her relationship and stay away from her man. But, no i do the opposite.

She was the only friend i had. When people talked down on me and called me names. She took up for me. Gracey might not have agreed with my lifestyle,but she accepted me.

Kyle the love of my life. Just thinking about him brings a smile to my face which quickly fades. My heart is extremely heavy now. I just cant think about him right now. Almost breaking down i take a seat on a near by bench.

I reside now in Miracle Falls a small town way down south. A community of only 300 and everybody knows everybody. Mostly white, but you have a few blacks and hispanics. Then the scenery here is beautiful a lot of trees and huge lake. No shopping mall or WalMart. Just little family owned businesses. Its beautiful here.

" Sia whats wrong ?" the familiar voice said.

" Nothing just thinking about some things." i said with a shaky voice trying to crack a small smile.

Wydell was his name. He was the finest black man in this town to me. From his full lips and beard. Dark brown skin and his somewhat slanted brown eyes. He stood 6'2 with a few tattoos here and there. An his hair was shaved low on the sides with two braid going into one of those little man buns.

No, No, No !!!!!

I Sia the girl known as the hoe  aint even fucked him nor have i seen him naked. He's my friend that i dont want to be with. But, for him its kind of different. Wydell wants a relationship with me but i dont.

After Kyle i just dont see myself being with no one. McKenzie love her some WyWy what she calls him. They have a good relationship, but i hate when she slips up and call him dad an he just lets her.

I just cant be with him my heart still and always will belong to Kyle.

He came and took a seat by me and we sat in a comfortable silence.

" Sia all i want to do is be your man and take care of y..."

" Wydell please stop you know i cant do that and i want. What part dont you understand ?" i said now pissed.

He says that same line every 2 weeks and im tired of hearing it. Wy took a deep breath and just shook his head.

" My bad Sia baby." he leaned over and kissed my cheek.

"Dont ever kiss me again please dont." i said just ready for him to leave me alone.

" Ill leave you alone for a couple of hours, but ill be by later to see my babies." he said.

He got up and left which made me happy. Im tired of telling his ass the same thing over and over. It was now 3 and i decided to go get McKenzie from daycare. I hate the fact that my baby look more and more like Jose' everyday,but she was beautiful.

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