Queens

Thirty-Eight.

Y/N POV

"Y/N."

Today is one of those days where I don't want to do anything and I don't want to be bothered. When I try to do good something gets in the way. My father had a whole case of bourbon sent to my office. I don't drink anymore so why in the hell would my father send me a case of booze. I have the answer to that question, my father is evil as fuck and wants to sabotage me in any way he can.

I had an early rehearsal and that went terrible all of the equipment was acting up. But hopefully tomorrow when I'll rehearse things will be better.

Javier and I had a really big argument and now we're not talking to each other. I guess you can say that we're on a break. We got into a big argument about trust and things just blew up. Javier and I started yelling at each other, the next thing you know he says he regrets getting together with me. Just as I suspected Javier is just like everyone else I've dated.

I guess love is the one thing that not good at. I can sing, dance, and run a business like its nothing but when it comes to relationships, I fail miserably. Sometimes I have to ask myself what is wrong with me? Something has to be wrong with me because it looks like every time I get in a relationship I'm the one that gets hurt.

"Y/N!"

"What the fuck do you want Mercedes?" I asked.

"Hold the hell up boss lady, now I know that you're having a bad day but you need to watch who you're raising your voice at. I am not the one okay." Mercedes said.

I sighed, "I'm sorry for yelling at you Mercedes. What's the problem?" I asked.

"Ally is here to see you and she's not leaving until you talk to her." Mercedes said.

"Fine send her in." I said.

I got up and fixed myself a glass of lemon water then sat down at my piano. Ally came in and sat next to me. I really don't have much to say to Ally because I'm still hurt about her not having my back when I needed her.

"You look beautiful today. The dress really fits you." Ally said.

"Cut the crap Ally and tell me why you're here." I said.

"I feel really bad about how things ended between us. I should've had your back when you need me. I just want to say I'm sorry Y/N and I hope that things can go back to the way they were." Ally said.

I finished drinking my water and said, "Things will never go back to the way they were Ally. Loyalty means everything to me and you showed me how loyal you were when you sided up with my family instead of me. But that's okay I don't need you, the girls, Javier, and I damn sure don't need that stupid ass family of mine. It's just gonna be me, myself, and I from now on. Fuck everyone else."

I meant that shit, I'm not going to depend on people anymore because they sure will let you down. All I need is me and my music. I started playing Listen on the piano and completely tuned Ally out.

"I never knew that you could be such a cold hearted bitch Y/N. Have fun being alone." Ally said.

"I certainly will now get the fuck out of my office." I said.

"Gladly." Ally said before leaving.

Sometimes in life you have to walk alone.

~

I've been sitting in this chair looking out the window for hours now and all I can do is think about how fuck up I am. Even though my family isn't perfect they're still my family. Diana gave birth to a beautiful baby boy and I have yet to see him. I haven't seen Riley in a long time and I really miss her. There was a time when my mother and father were my biggest supporters now they're my biggest enemies.