suicide thought (Ponyboy)

Closer

   Twobit and Steve had been around a lot more I tried to talk to them but I just couldn't right now."Hey Ponykid." "Twobit it's ponyboy." "Yeah yeah whatever.Anyway what are we going at today." "I'm not suppose to leave the house for another little while more like ever." "Well Darry's not here so let's go." I simply said no I couldn't more like wouldn't I just wanted to stay home today "come on pony." "Two tell me something when did you start doing that." I pointed to his wrist then he sat down ready to explain "well it was c couple days after you left to the chruch I was so worried your my closest friend to surprise.Im just glad your safe I've stopped since." "Well I'm okay I'm safe now." "Are you safe cause by the look of your wrist your not." "Just leave it two I'm good these are from a couple weeks ago." "Ok" I was lying I'm not good these cuts are from 2 days ago.
    Steve and soda came in a little while later and soon Darry was home to we watched Mickey and talked about our days. "Ok ponyboy bed now." "What Darry I'm 15 I don't need a bed time." "It's 12:00 at night I've had a long day do you really want to start a fight now." "No cause we said were not going to fight." "Good now go." "Fine." I got up from my spot on the couch went to the from took my pants and shirt off them lid in the bed.Soda soon came in I was faking being alseep I haven't sleep in 2 months I have insomnia.No one knows so I just fake being asleep around soda."pony I know your not alseep and that you haven't been sleeping." Well shoot soda knows....