suicide thought (Ponyboy)

What pony did

  "It was a couple months before I turned 13 and about 7 in the morning I was the only one up. My parents were still alive they would be up soon so I just went outside cause I heard a noise like lightning but I just figured it was a metal trash can or something. It was just starting to get light out so I could barely see what was going on but I saw a man dressed in all black holding a blood stained knife and his knuckles were bandages up he was getting closer and closer to me as I started to step backwards in to the house thinking some one has to be up by now. Sure enough Darry was up I could see him cooking up some breakfast I screamed out to him and he quickly turned over as the man grabbed me and pulled me somewhere I heard a engine start on a car well I guess I'm in a car. It had been about 30 minutes of driving when we stopped a car door opened and I was thrown out of a door literally thrown since my hands were tied so were my feet. Remember when I went missing last year for about 2 weeks maybe a little more well the man had kidnapped me and locked me in a room and done the worst beat me everyday I was in trembling pain also he... He did bad things to me that's all I'm going to say. After a while of all that daily more people would come and I would be sold off, passed around if you must say to different people.Eventually I got to one that had a window I could fit out and I did one thing lead to another I got here. I'm surprised did you forget Darry you saw me."
    "I totally forgot about that cause mom just told us they sent out to summer camp and we never suspected nothing." Soda was looking surprised that he didn't know about all this till about 2 years after it happened I can remember everything that happened it wasn't pretty "So pony is that why your blaming yourself." Soda asked "no it's for other reasons. The man that kidnapped me I killed him."

Plot twist OHHHHHH