suicide thought (Ponyboy)

Therapy

Therapy was today we were just leaving from it it was terrible.I walked in 10 minutes before I had to went into the room I was supposed to be in then a girl walked in she was young about 20 probably she sat down at her desk while I sat across from her."So your names ponyboy right." "Yeah." "Very...original." "My dad was a original man." "Well ponyboy it seems you have been trying to commit suicide a couple times.You came here so you can have talk it out." "Yes I did." "Well all you have to do is answer these question I ask you and the time will fly bye." "Ok." "So ponyboy when did you start feeling like this." "I felt a little father my parents died last year but that was only about one cut every 2 weeks or something.Then not to long ago my only 2 friends died so after that I started cutting everyday with 19 cuts a day the a father I was caught with the cuts I swallowed 19 pills." "Ok so next question did you ever think of how others would feel about this?" "Not really they never seemed to care if they saw a couple cuts I always have at least 3 cuts on me a day not from myself but because of some other things." "Pony you have to know no one is going to judge you or hurt you for feeling this way.I use to think the same way when I was about 12-14 then all a sudden I felt different one day and here I am.The important thing is to yak worth your brothers." "What do you suggest." "I suggest just walk up to them say you need to talk even if you don't wanna talk just take a breathing moment and go to a room." "Look at the time it s already been 2 hours." "Well ponyboy it was nice to meet you I'll see you in two days." "Yeah bye."
    I felt like crying when I left that place but i never I hated crying in front of the "gang" (omg it autocorrected to gay) as much as they hated to see me cry. When we finally reached home everyone left was there I guess no work today then."Pony how'd it go." "It was just fine soda." To be honest it wast just fine.I wasn't just fine.