Changes

Epilogue

Epilogue

I never confirmed that Daniel was Rocco and Ezra’s father, but deep down I think he knew. Bursting into tears that day at the barbeque properly told him all that he needed to know. Daniel spends so much time with me and the boys; it sometimes feels like we are a real family, sometimes I wish we were a family but I know it will never happen.  The boys love having him around, he always makes time.

Rocco and Ezra both have grown so much, they are three now. It’s hard to believe I had them three years ago. I am now twenty one and in such a good place. I have been tattooing a lot and have just about got enough money together for a deposit on a house, a home for the boys and I.

Mum, Beau, Luke, Jai and I and the boys are closer than ever. I swear the boys and I are always over at Mums. Rocco and Ezra love it there.

I don’t really know if my family fully understand why I left but I think they have accepted it. Leaving was not one of the best decisions I have made but it helped me to get my life on track, it helped me to find peace.

Ben’s due to be released from prison within the next six months although he is not to come near me. I now know and accept that what he did to me was not my fault. I have forgiven him, it may be crazy but I don’t want to hold on to that anger. I just want to focus on my future and my boys.

Sally and Bill are still a part of our lives, we have been back to visit them twice already. I hope to be able to continue visiting them with the boys as they are a massive part of our lives. Without them, the boys and I wouldn’t be where we are today.

I don’t know what the future holds for me or the boys, all I know is that I want my family to be in it which I am sure they will be. As for Daniel and I , I hope that one day I will have the courage to just tell him everything even though he’s pretty much figured it out. I can’t imagine my life without Rocco and Ezra, at times its been hard and there are going to be more of those times, but that’s what being a mother is, being there for the good, the bad, the tough and the best moments, I wouldn’t change it for the world.