Bandaged & Damaged {BoyxBoy & FIN & EDITING}

chapter twenty five

I watched as people walked outside around the campus. Miles was in the small kitchen making food as he blared the TV. I blocked everything and looked at the sky. I came back to the dorm at night, Miles sleeping on my bed, and wanted to cry. I was sick and tired of crying about boys. They don't deserve the energy I put on them. I don't know why I let my feelings take over when I knew I was going to get hurt at the end. I guess it was my fault for acting like a love sick puppy and jumping into another relationship.

"I hope you like turkey sandwiches!" Miles said excitedly. I looked away from the window and saw him watch in the living room. I turned my chair to face him and he had a plate of mini sandwiches. They made me think of Ma. She would make them in the summer and a cold glass of lemonade. Those were the moments when Miles and I actually liked each other, though I knew he was faking it because guest were over the house.

"Thanks," I mumbled and picked up a sandwich.

I could feel Miles's emotion switched to protective mood. "What happened?" He asked.

"I don't want to talk about it," I said quickly. It's been a couple of weeks since I last talked to them. I wanted to keep it that way. Hell, even Junior, my closest friend, didn't come near me or asked me if I was okay. I knew he was giving me space and I appreciate that. The others I wasn't too sure and I hate to say this but I was worried about them, especially Asher. I remembered the look he gave me when I told him I was out. It seemed like he never had someone leave his gang and it probably drove him crazy or he was upset that this ended like this. I don't blame him though. Kiel thought I wasn't cut out for it anyway.

Miles sighed and placed the plate on my desk. He grabbed my wrist and pulled me out of the chair and to the couch. He turned off the TV and sat next to me.

"It's about Pierce isn't it?" My silence answered his question. "What did he do?"

Hurt me. I should have seen it coming. Damn my feelings. "I think I have bad luck with love, not that I was really looking for it," I said and chuckled dryly.

I wasn't really looking for anyone actually. All I wanted was to go to college because it was the first time I was going to school. I don't have many goals in my life because I was content with what I had.

"You're only eighteen. You'll find somebody soon. Some of these guys aren't worth your time," Miles said and picked up a sandwich. "I just don't understand why you mess with those guys."

"It's complicated."

"This whole situation is complicated." I was almost tempted to tell Miles what I was thinking and what happened between Pierce and I. I know he won't like the idea of me giving my virginity away to Pierce but that's why this whole thing started. Miles didn't change ever since we got back to college. He didn't change rooms and I think he convinced the principle that he could stay here until he graduated (or until I graduated it seemed like it) I wasn't complaining though. This was the first time that I didn't hate Miles's company.

"Miles—" I stopped mid way when his hazel looked at me. I was stuck. I didn't know how to explain to someone that I was in deep shit. I didn't have a probably telling Mr. Cole that I was abused, though he didn't believe me, so what was different? Would Miles not believe and think it's my fault? I would be surprised if he didn't.

"Yeah?" He said with food in his mouth. Ma would smack him on the head for speaking with his mouth full.

"What happened to you and Indigo?"

Miles choked and he quickly drank whatever was in his cup. He beat on his chest and coughed harshly. I waited for him to control himself and try to breathe. He took a deep breath and sighed loudly. "We stopped talking."