Anything For Love

Chapter 47

I looked over at Ken and couldn't really make out his facial expression through the tears forming in my eyes. The fact that he was silent horrified me. "I'm sorry..." I said looking into his eyes from across the couch. All he did was sit there...silent. "Ken...please say something...at least" I begged. We sat there staring at each other, saying nothing as he tried to contemplate what just happened. "I know what I say or do could never console you or make things right-"
"Can you tell me it didn't mean anything?" He finally said in the calmest tone.
"What?" I asked slightly surprised.
"Can you tell me you sleeping with Birdman didn't mean anything?" He slowly asked again.
I thought long and hard about this question. I mean Did it mean something? Ken is a nice guy but I just feel so dead being with him. Brian makes me feel alive and young. His smile alone could cause a flood💦.
"What the hell are you doing?!?" Ken asked, noticing me shuffling in my seat and biting my lip.
"Huh?" I jumped.
"Are you...thinking about him right now?" He asked in shear anger.
"I'm sorry I was just-" I tried to apologize.
"No need to apologize because clearly the answer is yes" He uttered while getting up and pacing back and forth,
"Why are you so upset?"
"BECAUSE YOU'RE BEING STUPID....HE IS A RAPPER TONI. DO YOU THINK RAPPERS LIKE HIM ARE TIED DOWN TO ONE WOMAN?"
"Well-"
"NO TONI... THE ANSWER IS NO. HE PROBABLY HAS A THOUSAND OTHER GIRLS SLEEPING WITH HIM AS WE SPEAK"
"No...he loves me and I love him, which is more than what we have" I shouted trying to hold back tears.
"What?" He asked cluelessly.
"You heard me" I said rolling my eyes and not facing him. It took him a while to calm himself down and actually talk to me.
"What makes you think I don't love you?" He finally said sitting on the couch where I was.
"Ken we argue all the time and with you I feel so dead inside but when I'm with him there's nothing else like it. It's like a fire inside of me that, when I'm with you, It's dull and dead but, when I'm with him, it's ignited all of a sudden." I confessed looking at him.
"Toni I can't make you love me if you don't, but it's just that when I see you with him it makes me think that you're just some hoe that likes to be passed aroun-" He was interrupted by the slap of my hand.
I quickly gathered as many of my things that I could and rushed out the door.
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As I was frantically looking for my keys and walking to the driveway I quickly glanced up and seen an empty driveway. Dammit I forgot my car is in the shop...ugh lemme call Brian. "Hello um can you come get me" I said in a trembling voice. "Uh yea sure...are you ok?" He asked with concern. "Yea but can you hurry" I lied. "Aight I'm on my way" I wanted to get as far away from this place as possible. Why is it so damn cold tonight? I'm freezing my ass off! I guess Ken seen me shaking or something because before I knew it there was a blanket across my shoulders. "Ken can you just leave me alone" I exclaimed, handing him back the blanket. "I'm just trying to help" he said rubbing my arms. Ok I'll admit it...his hands were super warm and exactly what I needed for my ice cold arms but...I just couldn't... "DON'T TOUCH ME!" I shouted and walked away from him. "Tone come on don't do this" He said following me. Just then, Brian pulled up next to me in his all black Escalade. "What's going on here?" He asked getting out of the car. "Well, if it isn't Mr.Birdshit himself" Ken said looking at him with hate in his eyes. "Who the fuck you think you're talking to?" Brian asked while taking a step towards Ken. "Brian don't" I said in the middle of them both. "What you wanna do?" Ken asked while taking a step towards Brian. "Toni get in the car" Brian demanded. "Nah Toni stay and watch your man get beat the fuck up" Ken said taking another step towards him. The space between them got smaller and smaller and my amount of panic got larger and larger. Just as Brian reached for something around his waist area I grabbed his face and looked him right in the eyes. "Baby listen and listen good. You don't have to do this. You have me and I have you and that's all that matters. Don't stoop to his level. Please" I grabbed his hand and led him to the car and we drove to his place in silence.
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"I'm really sorry you had to see me like that" He finally said while opening my car door. "It's fine...really" I replied still a little shaken from what happened. "I just don't deal with disrespeck especially disrespeck of my girl" He said while opening his front door. "Um do you mean disrespect?" I asked giggling. "Yea that's what I said gurl" He replied laughing. He opened the front door and that blast of heat was just what I needed. "Whatever...you wanna watch a movie?" I asked while taking my shoes off and getting comfy on the couch. "Uh sure...you want me to make popcorn or something?" He asked. "Of course babe" I replied smiling at him.

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I know I've been gone FOREVER but don't fight me because... I'M BACK BITCHES😛😛😛